钓鱼

“当时我真的得意的笑了,
没有留意它哭了!
或许是因为痛吧!
还是怨恨这是一场不公平的游戏。
如果钓鱼的人,
嘴里也含着鱼钩来搏斗,
输的鱼,是不会掉泪的。”
几米是这样写的。

他说：
我不喜欢钓鱼
为什么？
残忍。。
它流血
你兴奋

那次是我第一次钓鱼
等了等
鱼上钩
我笑了
鱼哭了
我不晓得
鱼在挣扎
死了
我的快乐
鱼的痛苦
那是最后一次

登嘉楼美食

这贴是我写在登大的论坛。。怕被删除，还是把它藏在这里比较安全。。

“不要看这里有点偏僻，店铺很零零散散的感觉，
这里可是有不少的美食，很有特色的食物叻~
呃，只是这里附近都有很多奇奇怪怪的食物鸟。。
欢迎来一起分享任何登嘉楼美食地点+食物!

首先，有很特别的登嘉楼早餐。。
nasi dagang - 它是糯米饭加沙丁鱼淋上咖哩汁。。
RM2.50

还有炒饭炒到不会停手的Mcfly师傅的nasi goreng..
它有分成separuh 或penuh。
正常的人都是吃separuh的。。
penuh很很大盘。。
它的特色是很便宜
separuh - RM2.00
penuh - RM2.50

再走远一点就有华人餐馆鸟。。
也是吃炒的。。不过他那里著名的是炒滑蛋河。。
有分成鸳鸯的，就是米粉加河粉。。
虽然是有点贵，不过它的料很多。。
滑蛋河 - RM3.50

sotong celup tepung即是我们常叫的 sotong goreng不用多介绍，相信大部分的朋
友都吃过鸟。。有一个风景不错的，靠近海的地方吃sotong goreng很爽。。也是在Batu
Rakit..它的cendol蛮好喝。。里面有糯米的。。吃到饱饱..

我们回去gong badak..
restorant makan zalina著名的是nasi goreng ayam。。
真的比其他的来得香。。
它的tomyam也不错，而且它是白色的。。

在gong badak的小贩中心有一档即大盘又便宜又好吃的鸡饭。。
还有还有它隔壁的mee goreng mamak也是有名的。。
再隔壁的roti canai很不错一下，比MZA的好吃。。

NR Cafe虽然很有情调，但必须喂一下蚊子。。
你还可以上去楼台坐着吃，只限4个人。。
应该是因为怕太重支撑不住。。嘻嘻。。
(只是晚上营业)

好了，我们去远一点点。。
就是hot hot餐馆。。
吃什么呢?吃印度餐的。。
我只吃过它的nasi kari kambing..
它的roti canai也不错一下。。

我们去吃滑lut lut 的豆腐花。。
在唐人街的小贩中心。。
他的豆奶很大杯才RM1.20
只在中午开档，晚上就关鸟..

还有还有。。靠近BSN银行有一间鸡饭叫"全记鸡饭"。。
很有家乡的感觉。。很像海南鸡饭。。
有白鸡跟烧鸡选择。。价钱一样RM3

在Hotel Sri Malaysia隔壁的餐馆有海南炒饭。。
很好吃一下。。呃，应该是傍晚才开档。。”

还有什么呢？呃，大大杯的果汁是那里的风俗。。jus buah gelas besar..
唐人街的果汁是五颜六色，缤纷色彩的。
著名的是龙珠果汁，还有其他奇奇怪怪的果汁，让那老板慢慢跟你介绍。。
价格还很公道呢！

病了

口怜。。口怜。。

朋友才回去两天后我就开始生病了。

它像慢性疾病，先先是喉咙很容易干，然后痛，再来内伤风，发烧，流鼻涕，轻微咳嗽，失声，严重咳嗽。。。

还好12号那天来得及跟妈妈庆祝母情节。过后我就倒在床上三天三夜。

发烧又不能吃发烧药，就连没有paracetamol的发烧药也会眼睛肿。还好不是很严重只肿了一天一夜。

那几天活得像死尸一样。无精打采，没胃口，头又痛~~就连我最爱的--上网也没心情。晚上8点上床，10点刷牙再睡。

还好昨天看了医生，要不然我就不会在这里写部落了。

身体啊，身体~~快快好起来吧！我好想大声笑，大声讲话~~

不专业的法式指绘

正宗的法式指甲彩绘实在太费时费金钱了。像我这种玩下玩下，三分钟热度的还是不需酱用心啦！只需费点耐心，指甲就多一顶帽子了！
妈妈说它像马来人戴松骨的样子。你们觉得呢？

补习生涯

那天翻开副刊，我被一个大标题吸引住了- “海水到处有华人，华人到处有补习”
何时本小姐开始上补习班？从小学一年级至大学先修班，补习成了一个习惯。从家庭补习班到补习中心十个手指已经数不清了。

我的第一任补习老师，她已经因病逝世了。她是个家庭式的简单补习老师，什么科都教。

到了小三，我哥介绍我去另一家比较好的补习班。他们俩夫妻只收小四至高中二的学生。那时我只是小三，爸妈就要求他们收我这位小朋友，可是他们拒绝了。第二次，我还是小三（年尾），我爸妈再次要求。他们终于让我尝试跟小四的学生一起上课。那时他们是在一间排屋幼稚园教补习。学生很少。一班只有十多个学生。他们俩夫妻很喜欢我也很看好我，因为我算是很不错的学生。

过后他们的生意越来越好，家庭式的补习变成补习中心。人数也从十余个学生变成三，四十位。他们只教国语，英文，数学，科学。数理科由男老师教；语文则由女的教。一个星期大概上几天；一次一至两小时吧。小学班还真教得不错，到了初中三他们开始不太行了。可能是因为越来越深奥的关系吧。六年的师生缘就到此尽了。不过，我们见面时我都会叫他们一声“老师”。因为一日为师，终生为师，既使他们是收我的钱。有时我甚至觉得我跟补习老师的关系还胜过跟学校老师。

在期间，我也尝试其他的补习中心。小三时，我自己觉得英文很烂，自告奋勇的向父母要求去语言中心恶补英文。那间中心学费很贵，一个月百余块。因为它包括ladybird出版的故事书。那时她给我英文程度测试时，我连萝卜英文也不懂叫什么。刚开始的那几个月还很不错，一个月可以教两三本故事书。从班上英文最烂的学生，变成最厉害的那位。我真的很感激那位大肚子教师。她好像是叫mickey。因为我那时很好奇为什么女生不叫winnie。她也很疼爱我。可能是我实在太可爱，乖巧的关系。哈哈~不过自从那位大肚子的老师去生孩子褫职之后就常常换教师。越换越烂，一个月只教一本不到的故事书。我学的东西也越来越少。结果补了一年多我也跑了。那间补习中心让我认识很多英文的童话故事胜过华文。那些故事书至今我还收得好好。

我补习有个习惯，那就是不可以跟较好的朋友一起上课，因为我不能专心。只是到了高中一，交通成了障碍，结果必须跟朋友一起上课。而且上的都是补习中心，既是说一班很多人。师生关系也比较疏远。因为啊，程度越高，越难找补习教师。

数学：那间超多人的补习中心。一班挤上百人，连写字的位子也没有。刚开始我真的超级不习惯，酱多人怎样教书？后来因为教得明白的补习教师少得很，慢慢地接受，习惯了。

化学：那位叫kc leong的教师是我哥的朋友介绍的。刚开始上的第一堂课，我真的跟不上，他什么都很快，尤其是讲话。后来慢慢习惯了，也跟的上了。我的朋友是过了几个月才报名。结果，他们一直埋怨他不懂在教什么。

物理：由于时间在放学过后，既是昏昏欲睡的好时间。补习间常常梦游，不懂在教什么。我自己放弃了。本以为就只靠学校老师，考试后才发现不行。最后冲刺的那几个月才找到晚上班的，同一个教师。结果我自己一个人在那里上课。哈哈。这个选择实在太对了！至少我有在专心听课。拿到的成绩虽然不是A，不过已经是问心无愧了。

国语：她也是我哥介绍的。她也是我班级任。她是位华裔。开学第一天我就急着去找她商量关于补习的事。她要有十个人才开班，因为是家庭式的。她是位很尽责厉害的老师。怎么说呢？即使是位马来人，他的语法也比不上她，甚至华裔。虽然我们的语法比他们优胜，可是沟通却很烂。我得到的成绩令我很失望。在预考时，我得到A1。可是正式考试却拿个A2。正在执行国民服务的我，在跟老师她通话时一度泣不成声。结果，要老师她安慰我。

英文：哈！他是位荷兰老外。可以说他是GTO。他精通国语，英文，就连广东话也晓得一二。他满口黄腔，粗言浊语。我只记得我被他取了一个化名叫“三寸丁”，因为很矮的关系。上他的课可是心惊胆跳。因为每次都会轮流问答。像小学生那样，站起来举手回答，没答到就站到答到为止。地狱式的训练果然不负众望。

到了大学先修班，补的科目从四科变一科。成绩也跌到谷底。那年半可说是我最颓废的日子。刚开始想在kc leong报名补化学，可是他在我还在执行国民服务期间已经开班而且已经马满人了。过后，不懂经谁介绍来到三德副校长那里补习。还一度超欣赏他。不过，成绩一样差强人意。

至于生物补了两次就没去了。原因是他比我们学校的老师差。我们的生物老师可是在学校很出名的。出名挑剔，她要求十全十美。她既是我们中六学会的顾问老师。一句英文字也可以改上五六次。她坚持不开补习班。也对啦，反正她在班已经教得很清楚了，还常常开extra class。结果考得最好的就是它咯。她的笔记我还收得好好。不过，应该是时候丢了。

英文呢。。本来在某个家补了几个月，不过我还是很不习惯他。在他那里补习我也常常梦游。过后，付了几百块在某间语言中心学英文。怎知是骗钱的。在他那里什么都学不到，还一度当我们是小学生那样教我们。

数学也是这样。补了大概一年，才发现不懂他教什么。结果我坚决不补了，反正三德老师还比较优秀。很多人也这样一个一个跑了。

在众多补习老师之中，影响我最深的应该是那俩为夫妻党，mr & mrs Lee。我很感激他们给我打了很强的基础，尤其是国语和英语。感激他们给了我很多其他的忠告和启示。感激他们多年的栽培和疼爱。

到了大学，再也没有所谓的补习中心，只好到处问人。
就这样结束了我十二年半的补习生涯。

补习不是坏风气，只要认定补习的原因和方向，肯定自己能在补习时得到该拥有的知识/得到在学校的不到的知识，补习。。绝对不是坏事。

与霉神擦肩而过

昨天早上跟妈一起出门去pologround晨运+吃早餐。

那天的太阳特别猛，还好那里有很多树遮荫。最想走那段“天堂路”-石头道，可以刺激一下我的脚。
瓦赛，一走下去“啊~！哎哟，好痛~~”
可是我还是想走下去。妈妈还干脆把袜子脱掉，说什么袜子碍手碍脚，不爽。我一边走就一边痛苦的哀叫，连妈妈也觉得有点痛了。
“哎呀，我平时走都不觉得痛，干嘛你今天跟我一起来我就觉得很痛了？”
结果我们来回走了半圈的路妈妈就喊着要去吃早餐了。

吃完早餐，像往常一样，驾车时还是小心翼翼的。在回家的路途中，有个十字路口。可能是我一时不留神看走了一辆货车，我要直过对面时，他突然从东边的路快速地直走。还好他身手敏捷，看到我还能够闪得了。要不然就会酿成严重的车祸。我妈吓得目瞪口呆；我的心脏也有点负荷不来。那辆车过了，我还不停的跟大家说：
“Sorry ar.. sorry ar..”
（虽然那位司机没有听到。。呵呵。。）
然后就被妈妈念念念~~我也辩辩辩~~虽然认罪了，可是也希望可以减轻我的罪名。

回到家，我就快快去上香“定经”（镇定神经）。我跟妈说：
“我不敢驾车了~~很恐怖~~”
“怕什么,过了就没事,下次小心点咯!”

过后我就很专注的在上网。本以为想改善一下我的部落格，怎知搞下搞下连我的网页也游览不到~~我明明打的网址是hazeland.blogspot.com它出来的竟然是yeeteng.com而且是空白的一页。吓倒我。这个部落格可是我的心血啊！我后来改回原本的设定，它还是这样~~吓了我一个小时。后来换了网址就好了。可是我又不爽新的网址（hazeland86.blogspot.com)多了“86”。还是改回本来的网址。耶~终于看到我的部落格了！那时我才松了一口气~

到了晚上我真是筋疲力尽啊！尽不是皮肉之尽而是精神之尽。。哎哟，下次不要再这样刺激我了~~我好累哦~~

大阻塞

二十七号那天早上，我载妈先去某家银行要办一些事。在那里等了大概十多个人才轮到我们。在柜台等着那位马来同胞办着我们的事的当儿，我妈跟我说：
“等下你跟他讲说我要拿车卡。“
“什么车卡？“一脸疑惑。。
“我们的车啦！！我不会讲马来文，你帮我讲。“
“可是我都不懂是什么来的？你拿来做么？“

还未等到答案，那位马来公工作人员已经办完我们的事。我还没开口，妈妈就杀出一句：
“Encik, saya.. er..er.."
"nak ambil kad kereta."

我还没搞得懂要做什么就'blah'一句出来。妈一句，我一句接起来才一个句子。那位工作人员还能明白我们讲什么真是厉害！
“Ambil kad kereta pergi kaunter lapan.“
过后，我们三人也顶不顺偷偷笑了起来。
在那个八号柜台值岗的华人公就没有这样亲切了。他一脸不想干的态度对待我们。

办完第一件事后，又得办我的事了。先要去另一家银行提款机提款再更新簿子，然后去另一家银行给我在登家楼的家交租。第一次提款时机器竟然跟我说交易不成功，吓到我飙汗。因为啊银行里已经塞满了人群，加上他们的服务速度是超级非常慢的。然后就去另一架提款机再试一次。呼~成功了！

终于到了最后一家须去的银行，可是没有泊车位。口怜的我~~结果我就先下车，妈妈帮我找位子泊车。这是我第一次去这家银行。我进到去一脸疑惑：为什么跟平常去的银行不一样。为了安全起见，我还是填了一份储存表格再拿一张编号纸。进去里面为什么都是座位？不是平常的一行柜台？周旋了很久才发现原来楼上才是办一些例牌的事务。真是派色~~

瓦赛，为什么酱多人？！还有四十个人才轮到我！！我还要等多久？等了半个小时才过十个人。我可不是要等上两个小时？！算了~算了~我还是用存款机吧！呜呜呜~就连存款机也有大概十余个人。等一下吧,至少快过柜台那里。结果等了十五分钟终于顺利的搞定了。。钱很听话的进去了。。

我们还得去邮政局缴交水电费。为了方便我们去那里附近的邮政局。怎知~拿了那张编号纸才知道还有六十八个人才轮到我们!!算了算了,还是回去我们家附近的小小邮政局。搞了这样久我们可还没吃早餐甚至已经到了午餐时间。

虽然我们吃的是普通的杂菜饭,可是进了我们嘴巴却觉得好好吃哦!狼吞虎咽的,还好我没有这样,要保持形象嘛~~

自恋狂

每个女生都会有这样的经验..拍拍拍...每个女生最爱的消遣..

装可爱..是少不了啦!!

忙忙碌碌

那天十九号大清早，太阳都还未出来就赶着去洗床单等等。我的目的只是不想把一大堆脏东西带回家，之后又要带上来。为了日后的着想我还是牺牲小小的睡眠时间，起身洗衣去鸟。

洗完衣物，又得赶着去拿新家的钥匙。
目瞪口呆! 看到学长整车都塞满东西，兴奋的回家去。

考完试，我们房间的人都赶着收拾东西搬去新家。
最早回家的当然是我们之中最富裕的美玲咯。
明明就没什么东西的我，结果就是我的东西最多。
幸好有很大力的丝美在，要不然我可要搬好几个小时了。

本来还以为小小的灵鹿载不了很多东西，结果我们只来回两次就搬去新家了！！这样一搬就搬了两个半小时。。呃，是有四个人的东西啦。。
然后又去另一家拿两个书橱还有一箱的笔记，又在新家呆一下，时间就这样悄悄的溜走了。连打算好的庆功餐也被逼取消，因为啊本小姐晚上就要赶晚上的巴士回家了..

之前不是说很担心这一天会否哭到哗沥哗啦的,我强忍..忍..忍..最讨厌就是那个男人咯!!!写什么信给我..害本来累到没什么直觉的我感动到眼泪在眼眶打滚..还好车镜开着,风吹过来时把泪吹干了..

到了车站有另两位朋友还有一位不受欢迎的朋友在那里..我忍下来了..
结果我还是在巴士上哭泣..应该没什么人发现咯..

在巴士我的手脚开始发作了..一定是因为那天早上搬家还有驾那辆转盘超小的灵鹿所造成的..酸酸酸...酸到我很难入眠..不过也得睡了..实在很累..

告诉你们一件很奇怪的事..
话说坐我巴士隔壁的本来是个黑黑的印度男人..本小姐是绝对不会看错的..后来坐到一半时(不懂巴士停了多少轮)看看我旁边的人..哇唠!!竟然变成老外!!!而且是个大大个子的男人,就像我之前的补习老师,Gordon..
坐下坐下,睡下醒下..
老外很神奇的不见鸟,剩下的就是一张空椅子..

不久后就到家了..也就是说我的假期也即日开启了!!!

复杂心情

好久都没有认真的写部落了。。
之前的都是对自己碎碎念的话。。
最近心情都处于很乱的状况。。
根本没时间认真的、专一的想着一样事情。。
烦着一样，心里就想着第二样。。
其实昨天就想花点时间认真的写它了。。
可是另一样更重要的事情被我一再拖延。。
虽然那件事情只做了四分之一，不过还是忍不住。。

近日是考试的季节，大家读书读到有点走火入魔。。
上一科是我由始以来读到最辛苦、最乱的。。
讲师一点帖示都没有给我们，而且它是死背的科目。。
背到七七八八了，可是他出的题目是超级难。。
即使被背熟了，也可以不会回答。。
想当年背生物都没有酱辛苦过。。
那时的心情就是原来考数学和programming都没有酱辛苦过。。
最多就是不会做。。呵呵。。
可是最生气的就是读鸟不但记不起，还是问题里没有读过的东西。。
一边做就一边摔头。。

发泄完毕，讲别的。。
考完试回家必定是最开心的事。。
然而我的心情是复杂的。。
虽然想到回家可以做很多事就觉得很兴奋，
可是另一方面，我却不开心，应该是不舍得才对。。
首先，要讲一下我在家要做的事。。
身为Harry Potter的正版购买者，一定要在两个月的时间看完她的第五集。。
(称不上书迷，因为没有认真的看完她的一本书)
身为上网一族，灌水、写部落、看八卦、下载、提升自己、还有养我正死着的小宠物是必定要做的。。
身为IT学生，我要勤劳地搞好programming(因为是最烂+最重要的一科)
身为妈妈的女儿，陪妈妈+当妈妈的司机是必定会做的事+最爽的事。。
身为哥哥的妹妹，骗哥哥请吃是我最厉害的阴谋。。嘻嘻。。
身为朋友的朋友，跟朋友们喝茶、逛街、看戏、吹水是跑不鸟的
(不过不要叫我去旅行，本小姐最近很穷)。。T.T
身为人家的女友，想念他是自自然然会做的事。。

什么事让我酱不舍得?
就是他。。
SEATRU去不成，假期就没得见他鸟。。
他毕业了，又不能见他鸟。。
怎么办?
不懂19号我会有什么反应。。
很怕又哭到哗哩哗啦的。。
救命啊!!
1.41pm 10/04/07

多重身份的我，我累了。

身为一位学生
面对着不明白的程式，
面对着做不出成果的程式，
面对着不感兴趣的程式，
我累了。。

身为家里的一家之主
面对着为了钱而搞的不愉快的事情，
面对着还没搬进去就有的金钱，人事纠纷，
面对着未来的交通问题，
我累了

身为一位朋友
面对着爱比较的朋友们，
面对着没信用的朋友们，
面对着斤斤计较的朋友们，
面对着爱炫耀的朋友们，
我累了

没有在很好听

两个星期前，那位华语拿A2的丝美跟我讲一些我听不懂的华语。
她是酱讲的:"张学友没有在很好听。"
华语程度跟她一样的我分析到她给我的讯息是:
"张学友最新专辑的那首叫做"没有在"的歌很好听。"
我就跟她说:"哦，"没有在"很好听吗?那我要去听下鸟。"
结果，她想表达的是张学友的最新专辑不太好听的意思。。
听到我八只耳朵~~
我以为我真的酱迟钝。。
结果，我找到跟我收到一样讯息的安琪。
实在顶不顺鸟~~

疯狂的一次

不行啦!不可以再疯了。。
我竟然可以给一个陌生人写信。。
都是丝美的错啦!!
跟她越来疯鸟。。不顶鸟~~
她为了准备她朋友的生日礼物花了很多时间和精力。。
也花了很多口水问我意见(因为我就坐她旁边，睡我上面)
结果我也不懂为什么我会陪她疯。。
我竟然答应帮她写一封见证信，见证她是多么的用心。。
对着一个我完全没有接触过得女生(只见过她照片)，
我不可思议的写了两页的字。。
里面统统是废废，夸夸张张的文字。。看过的人都会顶不顺。。
感觉就像是我的朋友。。
嘻嘻。。只限这次，下不为例哦。。
10.35pm

又被压住鸟。。

虽然说今天凌晨发生时感觉有点怕。。
不过，跟朋友分享时我是当作笑话来讲。。
他们听了却不觉得好笑，是很怕。。
哈哈。。其实，没什么啦。。
就是凌晨一点多室友都睡着觉，我把灯也关掉，剩下我的书座灯开着。。
忙到两点多准备睡觉时(已经在床上)，朦朦胧胧(没戴眼镜)看到一团影子正飘向我。。

我心想:不要过来~不要过来。。
然后我就动也动不到，喊也喊不出声音。。
心里默念着经。。过了30秒酱，我身体终于可以转动了。。
那时还蛮怕，就希望快快睡下去。。
还好我上床前刚吃了令人爱睡的药。。
第二天起床怕的感觉就消失了。。
这都不是第一次鸟。。数也数不清了。。习惯就好。。
有心理专家说这是压力的问题。。
我当然希望是如此。。。

人蠢没药医~

哎~可怜的我。。
即使努力读书还是考得不怎么样。。
读来读去都塞不进脑，即使塞进了也很快排泄出来。。
我这个人不止天资迟钝，还天资没记性。。
即使有个聪明的学长教导，可是我还是朦朦胧胧。。
气到他比他自己做fyp的 program更头痛。。
讲了很多次都不明白。。可能他在我旁边我就更紧张。。
一直打错字。。作天我就像个被爸爸督促的小孩子。。
我也很抱歉。。
谁叫他的programming酱厉害?!除了他我还可以问谁?
没有啦~不懂。。我就是爽爽喜欢问他。。
他就被我这个笨笨的人气得团团转。。
学长，你不在我身边的日子我会努力的。。

重见天日

我可以上friendster了~~
所以说年轻人不可惹。。
即使校园block掉了，可是我们一样有办法游览。。呵呵。。
很好奇是谁先发现的方法。。
没关系啦~~只要可以任意游览网站就好了。。
那天证实游览到后我还兴奋的跳起来。。哈哈。。
真的是大惊小怪。。不管啦~~开心就好。。

Busy.. busy.. busy..

Let me count: COA group assignment + presentation, SE project, Maths test, Programming labwork, programming group project, kenegaraan assignment, informative speech... all these have to be settled in 2 weeks time, better say half month (seems longer). Not included my test 2 yet.. Pity... My mind is so crowded and dunno what to do, which should be given higher priority..

I have nobody to share my mind.. every student face this too.. Hope that this busy period can pass fast fast and begin my relax time again.. hehe..

My friends, gambateh loo..

Insomnia

After i came back to terengganu, i suffered from insomnia. Really hard to sleep at night. Mostly i will only fall asleep after laying on bed for hours time. i wonder why.. just got rid of this before chinese new year, now.. again..

The first day i came back, i was so tired and took a nap for 2 hours. but i only able to rest my mind after being on bed fo 1 hour.. After my class at 3sth, i went to sleep again.. the same condition happen.. Lay on bed for 2 hours but only sleep for 1 hour.. The night was terrrible.. Although my physically and mentally was so fatigue, i unable to close my eyes and rest my exhausted mind until 3am.. During these 'free period', i forgot what i thought about and just remembered that i was so sad at that time and dropped tears at the lonely midnight.

I had to wake up on 6.30am the next morning.. Luckily, i was not sleepy that day and energenic most of the time. However, my shoes so being hated.. walked until my legs so painful and being hurted.. During the dinner time, i hoped can share my mind/trouble with him, but i unable to open my mouth..

The insomnia was better that day, my mind just kept fresh for 1 1/2hours. Maybe i was exhausted with crying before on bed..

Miss the Massage Chair..

This morning when I woke up, my shoulder is paining and my leg also muscular aching... Additional gastric some more.. hehe.. Maybe got some mentally stress factors inside it.. Haiz, this whole week will have test test test test...Then have to stay in hall for the Chinese celebration rehearsal for whole day.. Moreover I'm the one who in charge technical support only, no take part in performance also need my attendance... Haiz~~ I'm so important actually... hehe..

Miss the osim massage chair in the clinic very much~~ So comfortable~~ When sitting on it, i will shout (smoothly) uncontrollably.. it make me gatal and geli.. haha.. but too many people queue up for their turn~~ give up... go back and massage myself.. hehe..

Immune to caffeine

Well, since i further my study in this foreign state - Terengganu, i uses to drink coffee to stimulate my 'OS' to be more alert and not sleepy any more.. At the earlier period, once i drank coffee, i will sure alert all the day until at night.. and my heart pound pound pound very fast.. as times go by, my body seems has adapted with the caffeine..

Just the past two days morning, i drank a cup of coffee before going to class. I failed to concentrate and felt so sleepy in the class, almost fall asleep~~ In the evening before went for dinner, i drank coffee again.. No chemical reaction at all.. damn sleepy...not feeling any heart pounding fast and not feeling the stimulator running its function...When i was having my dinner, i drank glass of 'teh 'o' limao ais'- stimulator again... not more than 3 hours, i felt sleepy ..

What else can make me not sleepy any more???? Damn pity...

五晨惊魂记

不知道的朋友，就告诉你们一下下。。
在这里 - 登加楼星期五是假期，就像你们的星期天。。
上个星期五，我们有补课。。从早上8点到12点。。
可怜的我被室友和同学抛下了，剩下我一个自己去上课。。
去关丹的去关丹，重色轻友的重色轻友。。哎~~
星期四晚上我可是独守空房。。可怜。。
还好我那天很快就近梦乡，要不然就会有点怕。。
第二天早上，我像平时那样七点三十五分走路去上课。。
那条小巷是我们上课的途径。。大概要走十五分钟酱才到我的课室。。
说起来真恐怖。。那天小巷一个人影都没有。。
一直走就一直东张西望，看看有没有熟悉的脸孔或恐怖的脸孔。。
结果。。没有。。
一直很害怕会遇人不淑(是酱吗?我不记得鸟)。。
曾经听教授讲过那里发生过案件。。
在沙地上看到雨伞就有点怕。。怕是某某人被陷害然后挣扎把雨伞弄丢鸟。。
然后又自己安慰自己说可能是被风吹走也说不定。。
一路上直到我到目的地为止都没有人。。还以为我是不是来错时间。。
正要打电话给同学时，正好在课室里还有个比我更早的同学。。
我那紧绷的脸开始松弛了下来。。
到了差不多7。55分同学们才纷纷到来。。
第一次整条巷子只有我一人的经验可是恐怖啊。。

Goodbye KUSTEM

Well, today is my last day stay in KUSTEM.. Start from tomorrow, i will study in UMT.. Sounds strange? No la, just the campus is going to change to university start from tomorrow.. actually nothing different.. just the name changed.. for me, not excited and happy as expected.. maybe i have adapted the name of KUSTEM, adapted to explain where KUSTEM located, and adapted all about KUSTEM..

UMT - University Malaysia Terengganu.. People may also ask where is UMT, why they have not heard that before? again, my explaination cannot be denied.. haha..

Actually, the logo is still the same, campus, people, students, courses all still remain no change.. erm, maybe the number of students will be increased further, the area of campus will bigger.. that's all will be different..
I still studying IT, still loacted in terengganu.. face the same persons..

KUSTEM gave me lots of memories.. especially good memories with friends and seniors..
Sadness, pressure, frustration could not be ignored indeed, but i really appreciate what i got/ learnt..

At there, i knew a gang of 7 chinese good seniors and 11 chinese cute cute coursemates.. Sometimes, some of them might make me annoy or frustrated..but times will goes by... and i would forget the bad memories soon.. haha.. ya, this is me.. oways got mentally problems.. something wrong with me..

MyDin

都是托我的福啦~~
来了才六个月，mydin mall就为我而建起。。
呵呵。。派写~~
没有啦!
只是想说。。
这里终于有间像样的购物广场，真的谢天谢地鸟。。
东海岸最大间的广场在18日开张营业鸟。。
泊车位不够~~那些车停到好远好远。。
吃的用的应有尽有~~还蛮开心的。。
欠缺的是戏院，麦当劳，衣服店。。。

碎了

最近我常常都这样问自己。。
恋爱只是为了在生活添加色彩?
我不否认恋爱有时很甜蜜，想起都会情不自禁地漏出甜丝丝的笑容。。
除此之外，我还得到什么?

比起得到物质，我宁愿对方可以体贴温柔的对待我，关心我。。
我这样简单的要求为什么都得不到。。
我只希望他可以像对他很喜欢的女生那样的含羞答答，
我不否认我的心是玻璃。。
一敲就碎了。。

假设

如果女生先喜欢上男生，那女生都会比较迁就男生，也会比较听男生的话。。
如果男生先喜欢上女生，那女生将会被宠爱，也会对女生比较温柔体贴。。
同样的，
如果女生先喜欢上男生，那女生比男生更在乎对方。。
如果男生先喜欢上女生，那男生会很在乎，关心女生。。

现在的我是有点泪/累，不。。
有时很累，累到几乎想放弃。。
可是为什么我会不舍得?
可能/也许没有一个完美的男生。。
因为怕后悔。。因为怕做错决定。。
因为我还爱着他。。

给男生的:

给男生的:
如果你希望你的另一半可以开心的跟你在一起
那你一定要找一个你先喜欢她很深的女生。。
那位女生一定很幸福。。

如果你只希望得到另一半的爱
那你的另一半将会是先喜欢你的女生
那你一定被爱得很深
可是这样的女生难免是有点累/泪。。

没什么

12号的心情给搞砸了。。
今早听到旁边的电话"嘟嘟"声就拿了上来看。。
有两封讯息。。
第一封没什么重要。。
正打算看了第二封就继续睡觉时。。
(通常都是转发讯息)
原来不是。。
是朋友的坏消息。。
我那时想了想也睡不下去了。。
心里有隐隐的难过。。

之前也收过这样的讯息
不过那时我没有感觉。。
只是觉得很正常啊~
旧的不去新的不来。。
那时的我没有身同感受。。

可能自己也很害怕有这么一天
这么一天朋友收到我类似的讯息。。

恋爱原来是这样的脆弱。。
原来它经不起考验。。
原来不是所谓的只要喜欢对方就可以继续发展下去。。
原来它是危险的。。
说分开就分开，谈何容易，要完全放得下是有点难。。
(对我来说是很难)
一不小心陷下去，就不容易爬起来。。

为什么身边的都是悲剧收场?!
就不可以给我一个美满的结局?!
朋友是这样，朋友的朋友也是，
就连身边的亲人都是如此。。
我不想这样。。

之前我想得很简单
不适合，不开心就分手吧
反正没什么大不了。。
原来把心放了下去一段感情要拿回出来也不是说般容易。。
不止是需要时间，也需要另一段新恋情才可以完全彻底放下。。

善变的雨季

季候风吹得有够厉害。。
冷冷的风吹过来都让人打冷颤~~
好冷~~
几乎每天都会下雨
而且是预料不到的。。
喜欢喜欢就会下毛毛雨
过了半个钟自己就停掉。。
再过半个钟又下，但
这次是大风大雨。。
约会每次都因为这个善变的雨季而取消。。
就连夹好晒着的衣服都可以从四楼吹去底楼~
连衣架都不敢用鸟~~
只是用衣架都会把衣服翻个360度。。
经过海边那些浪不是平时见到的舒服海浪，
而是恐怖相似要把你吞掉的感觉~~
呵呵。。
还好今天只下小小的毛毛雨，不过却很大风~~
不懂这个雨季什么时候才会结束。。

第二学期

再次回到了大学生涯。。
刚开始的那两个星期是空闲的。。
讲师大部分都没来上课。。
有的假期还未回来，有的老婆生孩子自己也请假一星期。。
结果闲了两星期后就回家过年。。
过年后的情形就180度转变。。
每个讲师纷纷准时上课
不管阴天雨天都来，而且还要补课，加而外的课~
我不死都一身残~
现在到处都是功课~
哎~最怕的就是programming~
看到那个所谓的method
还有那个calender的program
我已经蒙蒙懂懂鸟。。
本来写的最多只有三张纸，现在"双重"打击。。
未来做工的是数不清的页数~~
难怪我们的学长生白头发的生白头发，脱头发的也脱头发~~
如果只是给我题目，我一定不知些出什么来~
我可以不要拿progamming吗~~
明知道我就是笨笨的啦!
一点逻辑性思考都没有~~
数学酱烂鸟还要叫我编辑program~
简直就是不理我的哀号，恨恨地踢我下火杭~~
算鸟~认命吧~~可能上天知道我少用脑，结果要训练，考验我。。
要我脱头发~~~
我不要~~~

新的一年又来鸟~

哎~不懂是好事还是坏事。。
时间过得酱快。。有点恐怖。。
我不要老得酱快啦~~
不知不觉两张没的找鸟。。
本来青春美丽的我
现在还是很青春啦~~
呵呵。。

有什么愿望？
有一些很例牌的愿望不可少
身体健康~财源滚滚~事事如意~
有点像农历新年鸟。。
嘻嘻。。

这年啊，学业还是对我很重要。。
也是压力来源之一。。
不期望什么。。
只希望不要有放弃啦~很累的念头。。
(其实现在我很累鸟，想睡觉)
要努力！努力！

亲情在每个时候都很重要。。
希望我保持着乖乖女的形像。。
家人可以开开心心。。
哎~你们愁我也不比你们好受。。
呵呵。。

爱情，我不敢要求很多。。
只希望不要冷战。。
平平安安的渡过6，7和11月。。
很怕~~

友情，希望可以跟每位朋友都关系良好。。
关系好，我就少了一个烦恼。。

金钱，对它又爱又恨。。
希望今年可以不再为钱愁。。

还有什么呢？

啊！我要减肥！减多3-4公斤就够鸟。。
不贪心吧。。
肉肉底才口爱嘛~

我又回家了~~

其实犹豫了很久。。
很多问题要顾虑。。
车票啦~来回都要100块了。。
交通问题啦~
要不然就得孤零零的对着四面墙鸟~
明知道我是最怕孤独的啦~~
最后还是知道自己承受不鸟凄凉恐怖的感觉~~
决定回家。。

呵呵，“回家的目的是为了走更长远的路”。。
这是我的籍口啦~
再来就是让某某闭关好好念书。。
正所谓：“天天见到你，却产生了磨擦”就不好啦~

回家有些必定要做的事：
1。跟阿妈报告所发生的大小事
2。血拼！(视窗也爽）
3。睡觉（充足的睡眠)
4。吃！吃！吃！（吃到我胃酸过多导致胃痛）
5。坐沙发（那里的都给猫猫的毛霸占鸟)
6。看电视(那里的客厅是同胞们的地盘)
7。穿美美(那里没有穿美美的理由)

暂时想到的是酱。。

矛盾

日出或日落
我选了日落。。
不是因为喜欢。。
而是习惯了。。

可是我却喜欢日出。。
它就像萌生的希望。。


彩色或黑白。。
我选了黑白。。
不是因为喜欢。。
而是习惯了。。

可是我却喜欢彩色。。
它就像开心的象征。。

原来伤心的理由很简单。。
开心的原理也很简单。。
可是心锁却很难解开。。
我该怎么办。。
我能怎么办。。

圣诞节

圣诞节给我的感觉是
热闹，温馨，感动，幸福的节日
我没有庆祝圣诞节的习惯
却希望能够参与基督教徒的庆典
感受下他们的虔诚
也尊重他们的信仰
希望我也能够对我的宗教一样虔诚

平安夜那天我是多么希望可以跟他们去教堂
可是。。
没有相熟朋友壮胆
呵呵。。算了
来日方长。。

至少圣诞节那天被邀请去某位安娣安哥的open house
很热闹。。
那种气氛就像我们的农历新年。。
有自助餐，零食，还有柑。。
那位安哥拿着一个竹篮装满柑分别派给客人。。
眼睛都睁大了。。
怎么这么快有柑卖了?!
在那里试了一些平时没有什么机会吃的食物。。
很特别的laksa sarawak
米粉+虾米+鸡丝+青瓜丝+鱼碎咖哩汤+吉仔
蛮好吃的。。现在想起也流口水。。
还有圣诞节必备的烤火鸡。。

在异乡过节的寂寞心情也跟着开心起来。。
虽然不敢跟陌生人讲话。。
没有表露出兴奋的心情。。
只是静静的当旁观者其实也有其乐趣啊!
坐我旁边的学长也不知我在笑什么。。

还有一位很滑稽的小弟弟
他是安哥的儿子
见到他我就不经意联想起"小孩不笨"
"baby是怎样来的?"
他的表情就像戏里的一位角色。。

话说那位chicken man鼻子不舒服
弟弟的姐姐就问鸡男
"要不要吃鼻子的?我拿来。"
弟弟就说
"吃鼻子?!不可以!!"
联想一下戏里讲话的语气
弟弟真的很像新加坡人讲华语。。
呵呵。。

人生就是这么一回事

悲哀。。
从心里发出的伤感。。
今天一早朋友告诉我两个坏消息。。
我的小学家庭补习老师去世了。。
朋友的姐姐也去世了。。
真的很突然。。
真的很惊讶。。
酸溜溜的感觉不好受。。
我是从小学一年级到三年级在她那里补习。。
因为哥哥的关系。。
还记得第一次见到她就很不礼貌。。
小孩就是酱直接嘛。。
"她脸有很大粒痔!"
是哥哥拦住我，我才收敛一点。。
她很亲切，很有爱心。。
而且家里很多零食。。
常常都请我们吃东西。。
"冰箱有豆奶，要喝就去拿吧!"
"自己掩制的木瓜，试试看!"
以前偶尔会在菜市场遇到她。。
笨笨的我就称呼她"安娣"。。
过后她们全家搬了，我也没有见到她了。。
听说她开了幼儿园。。
听说她患了鼻癌。。
今天却听说她去世了。。

Capricorn Man

A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice
structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything
easily and clearly. He can guess what you will say before you even say it.
He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will
tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes'
color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder,
muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the
man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work
well at the same time can protect and care for his woman.

His height will be proportional to his weight. He will walk firmly and
always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with
no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to
watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you
could see him watching a construction site and not get bored.

He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance
floor, he will already have to know what in front or behind him before he
will take any steps.

Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue,
or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction
from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable
to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.

It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come
themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house
than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of
attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives
his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already "Sure"
and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he
is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always
doing things seriously.

He loves peaceful and quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at
home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams
of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in
a beautiful countryside.

He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are
over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the
perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one.
He won't allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will
spent for himself luxury for what it is worth.

He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating
this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who
would dance with you under the moon light.

Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say
it out loud, you have to know it yourself.

Libra Woman

Libra woman mostly has an egg oval facial shape. She has a nice smooth skin
and a good figure. She will spent so much efforts to keep her skin clean and
pretty. She can be easily allergy to cosmetic and make up, but taken care of
her face and avoid wrinkle is her hobby. She is good at it and tend to look
younger than her age.

She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman. She
looks nice in either Jean or night gown. She thinks woman is equal to man.
Sometimes she can think faster than you, but she will not leave you far
behind. She will try not to make you feel like you are competed or defeated
in any games she plays with you even she is winning.

She is a little flirt even she has no idea what she wants. She can not
decide what to do, and what not to do, so she can not set her schedule very
well in all cases.

She is gifted with how to dress, and how to match her dress. She likes to
dress in black and wear perfume. She likes a mild flowery scent.

In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and mostly
win the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could argue and once
a while give you a smile also. She will make a good politician, because she
can tell which party will win the election.

She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself. She can
not decide what is right and wrong for her, because everything has a good
side and a bad side. Woman in other Zodiac might not care what other people
think, but Libra woman care what other people ,or what you feel as much as
her own feeling.

She can adjust to her environment very well, so at work she will be at the
ladder up. She likes team work in doing things. If you ask her for help or
advice, she will help you except if she does not like your guts. She can
change you and make you think you change by yourself without her influence.

Good side of being with Libra woman are she never interfere with your
privacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends. Even she
cares about how much money she has left his her bank account, she will never
forget to let you know how much she cares for you.

She think taken care of the house is a woman job and she can do it well. But
if you expect a Libra woman to fear you, then you are wrong. She is a strong
woman even she looks at you with that sweet innocent pairs of baby's looks
and may loose you (let you win) in a few poker games.

If she is the one you are after, then go step by step. The best way is using
her friends introducing you to her. Do not make her feel or treat her like a
bubble head. You have to move forward toward her with confident and secure.
Show her that you are a kind , polite and a real gentleman. Be a slow hand
or else you might get smack!

You are so cute~~

Excited~~ and happy~~~
"Why are you so cute in the picture?" David
"got, you are very very very cute." Jeff

this two guys praised me in same day.

But something has gone..
Feeling..
some feeling has gone..

Why he didn't show his concern to me lastime???
Am i too cold to him?
The time has passed..

I should appreciate the fate i received now..
I really appreciate..

Black Monday~

Black black~~ Monday~~
Originally i was quite happy..
since can meet my friends before going back to terengganu..
chit-chating about the interesting university lifestyle, shopping with them, helping my friends to choose clothes, taking photo in a boutique and being scolded..

However,good times didn't last long..
During the period surfing Internet, something happened to my laptop..i.e. a trojan invaded my laptop!! being detected but unable to remove by most of the anti-spyware software..

Actually there is a solution - easiest way is to reformat the laptop.. But i'm not willingly to do that.. All my original software will be gone~~ no more IE7 and WMP11.. Cannot~~ I will mad~~ I'm trying to find other solution until there is no more method besides reformat..

Finally, the win32.TrojanDownloader.Small has been removed.. the method?
hoho~~ curious hoo?

Firstly, i would like to thank Nick.. although he is not the clue to solve this problem, he still willingly to call me to explain his experiences..
Secondly, this is the clue.. he asked me to find the solution on the Net.. The solution really can be found!! Thanks ya, kit..
Thirdly, if not my brother simply and brave enough to try the method found on the Internet, my laptop now will be reformatted already.. Thanks ya, dai lou..

Haiz~~ I really not dare enough to attempt the method.. i don't know what will happen..

Still then, i want to thank to myself because of my insistence..hehe.. if not i will give up easily and hand up to service ASAP..

really relieved after got rid of that malware.. hohoo~~

Belated birthday...Surprise

Really can't imagine that my birthday has passed about "half century" still got birthday presents ooo...

before leaving ipoh, we four will sure celebrate birthday with each other..
i thought this feature won't repeat again since we all go our own way liao.. haiz~~ im in Terengganu, mee san and pek hern in Bangi and chiou ling in Johor..

this year i celebrated birthday with a gang of brand new friends there..

this Monday, i got a unexpected surprise oo.. they three still bought birthday presents to me.. surely, im not greed for the worth of those presents.. just the sincerity is most important..

thanks to mee san, chiou ling and pek hern.. (from eldest to youngest)..
forever best friends, ya..

破冰了

真的很开心。。
从内心发出的开心。。
也有点安慰。。
之前因为某个绯闻
让我跟某某陷入尴尬气氛
很少聊天
虽然感觉没了
可是还是很冷的气氛
一直想找机会解释
可是还是算了
一直以来
他是我唯一的遗憾
因为有些问题
我主动找他
冰溶了
而且也要感谢安琪
因为她的恶作剧
之前的误会
也得到了答案
真的很开心
多了一位朋友的感觉真好
尴尬也没了
呵呵。。
花了点电话费
也是值得的。。

老同学聚餐会

昨天约了一班老同学喝茶
都是培南生。。
掘指一算
原来我们都认识了11年
现在还能相聚一堂
真的不简单啊。。
大家都从不同的地方回来所谓的家乡
虽然人数不多
呵呵
可能是晚上的关系吧。。
不怕
来日方长嘛~
让我算算有谁
美珊，月盈(Phoebe)，嘉琪，荣恩(Ah Ean)，
国威，俊贤(Loke"爷爷")，俊杰，宓恒，
崇彦，秋宁
当然还有我。。
本来还有几位
可是他们都不得空

他们的外形是有点变了。。
男的都帅气了。。
荣恩的头发终于有点长度鸟
国威一身正式的样子，有点好笑
俊贤最轻便，轻便得来是蛮帅的啦!
(当我看到他的黏式nike鞋真的很遗憾。。
想当年对它一见钟情(现在还是很喜欢)，可是却没有我的"塞丝"-- 伤心)
俊杰就名牌鸟。。
本身就是大富人家的儿子，还驾家里的mercedes来，够力!
崇彦上半身还蛮可以的，只是下半身不配上半身。。
比起以前是好很多了
最正的应该是Loke爷爷吧。。
整体来看他是很ok的那位。。

女的我们几位都是简单打扮。。
秋宁越来越小只鸟
巴掌脸冠军
美珊还是美丽动人
嘉琪没什么变
月盈还是很~~~~瘦
宓恒的缺陷祢补得很好
只是被崇彦的那句话滑到
他的直接简直让人喷饭
所以最正的非宓恒莫属鸟。。
简直流口水~~

而我当然不用讲鸟~
身形像企鹅，脸型像雪人。。
简直无人能比。。
最烂的非我莫属。。

想不到我们可以从小学讲到中学再到大学。。
小学的历史还记得酱清楚
佩服
所谓的"正"字
永远是宓恒跟崇彦离不开的经典
我这位好学生当然没有黑名单叻
呵呵。。
小学一定有林素玉级任老师鸟
她的默写作文政策就是刻骨铭心
还是长不大的陈俊杰还记得嘉琪改作文改得很严
就是记仇嘛~

中学很快就飞去中五鸟
因为比较深刻
每位老师都讲一番
首先是Cik Ng Soo Heng
我们的马来文兼级任老师
对她我们是有赞无弹的
她还是我的补习老师
讲起在她家补习就超好笑
那位姓陈的在那里补过习我一点印象都没有
只记得我左边是宓恒；右边是伟杰。。
宓恒左边是崇彦；他左边是文儒；再左边是志权
而我对面的都是女生
就不知到何来的俊杰。。
呵呵。。
不止我，崇彦也是酱说的
然后就讲起饭盒总是很丰富的伟杰
总是嫌饭盒太大包吃不完的理由
给了我跟宓恒很多鸡肉和鸡蛋
吃到我们胖胖。。
有何居心?!

再来就是被我们投诉的英文老师
教物理的可爱可爱
很搞笑的生物老师
很长气的历史老师
"周鱼的火车"/"翻云覆雨"(不敢解释)的华文老师
都是那位colgate(许伟杰)的错叻。。

然后就到大学论坛鸟。。
我发现一个很奇怪的现象
当男生问我你在哪里读啊?
我说KUSTEM你有听过吗?
他们会说有啊。。
再问我读什么科系啊?
我说软件工程
他们会说不错啊。。

相反的，
女生问我同样的问题
我当然答同样的答案
可是她们却一脸疑惑
要我说在登加楼才甘愿
我想她们根本不知道在哪里吧?
没关系
有空带她们去见识酷似癫的巨蛋;
我说软件工程
她们会问我你有兴趣hoh?
我会说不错啊。。

这就是男女之分鸟~~
怪怪的~~

当然免不了会相比一番鸟。。
竟然马大跟国大比大
够力~
竟然比较范围
还算一小时跑不跑得完。。
我差点滑倒~
他们还讲旷课经验
想不到他们敢敢旷课

想不到的是
相当年旷课天后的我
上了大学竟然没有旷过一堂课
只有请过一次病假
因为那次真的肿的够力，就快走不到鸟。。
哈哈，改邪归正鸟，不可思议。。

World University Ranking
马大的水准竟然会输给国大?!
可怜~~
还记得叔叔读国大时，它才新建不久。。
还是无名小卒。。无人问津。。
想不到30年后竟然超越马大

现在酷似癫就像30年前的国大
它还是小孩，才7岁
还有发展机会。。呵呵。。
等多30年吧。。

谈下谈下竟然顶不顺烟味
而改换去mamak档再继续八卦
八卦到夜深人静才舍得回家
(其实还是很热闹。。只是都很夜了。。只好回家鸟)

宽待自己 -- 电视剧篇

呵呵。。
我看的电视剧少得可怜
没有赞助商
唯有从朋友转送过来
首先
不好意思
我不爱看台湾剧
比较喜欢港剧
偶尔韩剧

说了嘛~
我很闷骚，对吧?
"我也不想这样反反复复，反正每个人都孤独~~"
怎么唱起王菲的歌来了?
没办法
想念偶像就是情不自禁

去了北京一趟
回来了。。

朋友怂恿我看"恶魔在身边"
可是我都不领情 -- 犯贱

烧出来的都是港剧
首先是"阿旺新传"
还不错叻
只是阿旺未免也太懂事了吧?



过后
真的太无聊了
唯有看"布衣神相"
越看越紧张
只是他们的对白太多了
都得专心的听他们讲话
呵呵。。



最后是"肥田喜事"
不过
只看了12集
还有8集
期待，等待当中
很搞笑
因为喜欢胡杏儿
因为本身是肥妹一族
就像喜欢"金三顺"一样

"肥妹怕热嘛~~"嘻嘻..

宽待自己-电影篇

在外面读书的日子里
甚少看电影
那里没有戏院
没时间看
没兴致勃勃的心情看

总算假期了
假期无所事事
待在家--无聊
唯有在家里
自找乐
看DVD
虽然是旧片
不过也算经典之作
有时也需要宽待自己吧。。

首先，这部电影已经有8年了。
1998年的片子--Independence Day



接下来是一部"报仇"片。。
应该是"惩罚"片
片名叫--The Punisher (2004)



超正的听觉效果
感受一下超快感
就得看-- Too Fast Too Furious - Tokyo Drift



再来点感动，紧张，有点搞笑的大制作
"世界末日" -- Armageddon (1998)

童年

吃早餐时遇见旧同学
曾几何时同班过
曾几何时是小学同学
现在见面了
名字也忘了
只记得他姓曾
当然
对方是记得对方
只是没有交流
可能对方心里都会想
我们曾经是同学
事隔千秋
再见面大家都变了
可能是他变了
而我还是我
看见他我会想
为什么会变成这样?
他
吸烟了
不再像以前的单纯
不过
也帅气了
看见他才发现大家都已成年
以前的童年都变成了回忆

小小螃蟹

小小螃蟹
在酷似癫不难找到
幸运的
活生生地横行着
不幸的
扁扁的趴在路上

呵呵。。
这只算幸运
晚上横行被我发现
无聊的拍了下来
只想留做纪念。。

随笔写写

习惯了习惯
生活就是一成不变

尝试新尝试
未必是坏事

危害身体, 污染视野的行为。。

最近在街上不难看到一些老外不像老外，华裔不像华人裔的人。

我不了解黑发有什么不好。。
我不了解金橘发有什么酱特别。。

我觉得我们应以黑发为傲。。
黑发黄皮肤是华裔的象征。。
为什么偏偏爱染成金发?你们不觉得恶心吗?

不要告诉我什么是潮流什么是时尚。。
我喜欢新颖的东西。。
我喜欢注意潮流的动向。。
可是我对潮流这东西有一定的原则。。

街上到处金发人。。
给我的感觉一点都不新潮。。还有点污染视野。。
甚至给我的感觉是土!
又不见外国整街是黑发人?

为什么我们不可以以黑发为傲?
染发有酱美吗? 我并不觉得。。


这篇文章纯属个人观点，绝对没有意愿想引起纠纷。。

平淡的流年

"一天，男孩和女孩吵架了。他不再對她說 我愛你 ，當然她也不再對他說我也是。
一天晚上，他們談到了分手的事，背對背睡下了。
半夜，天上打雷了。
第一聲雷響時，他醒了，下意識地猛地用雙手去捂她的耳朵，才發現不知何時他又擁著她。
雷聲緊接著炸假裝什麼也沒發生，可誰都沒有睡著她想也許他還愛我，生怕我受一點點嚇。
他想，也許她還愛我，不然她不會流淚的。
愛的最高境界是經得起平淡的流年。"

濠雨

突然下起了大雨
不妥当的沟渠建筑
雨水迅速地聚积在大路旁
车子在街上慢慢地蠕动着
可伶的单车骑士
惟有被无情的大雨狠狠地打在身上
被淋得全身湿透
尽管如此
大家仍小心翼翼地
往各自的目的地行驶
当时
每个人的心中都有
一个相同的意愿 ：
希望大雨尽快告一段落
还我一个晴朗的天空

如果和结果

如果你的电话寂静了很久，那表示我不再想你了。
如果我的眼神到处遛达，那表示我不再尊重你了。
如果你的唠叨我没听见，那表示我不在意你了。
如果我的妒忌心不在，那表示我不喜欢你了。
如果有了挑剔，那表示我们不再相爱了。
如果在一起没了心跳，那表示我麻木了。
如果我没有挽留，那表示我的心已被掏空了。
如果我们没了话题，那表示问题已经存在了。
如果没有解药，那表示已经有了结果。

沉思

"在对的时间，遇见对的人，是一生幸福。
在对的时间，遇见错的人，是一场心伤。
在错的时间，遇见错的人，是一段荒唐。
在错的时间，遇见对的人，是一阵叹息。

其实有些事情，真的是没得到的时候，最珍贵美丽。
你是否分得清楚，你爱的是那“得不到”的感觉还是“那个人”？

聪明的人喜欢猜心，虽然每次都猜对了，却失去了自己的心......
傻气的人喜欢给心，虽然每次都被笑了，却得到了别人的心......"

这是我从朋友的部落转贴回来的。。
朋友是从别的地方贴上去的。。。
就是酱一直传一直传下去。。

自食其果

看见大部分的朋友都在自己选的大学里念自己喜欢的科系，不禁让我哀叹。。

只是有些还不知足。。常常埋怨为什么不是马大的医药系而是在国大医药系。。
真的有点气啦~

现在有酱的结果对我来说已经很不错了。。因为这都是自食其果。。

如果想当年可以积极点念书，可能8个选择会中一个。。
如果想当年知道有科大，可能我会中食物科学。。
如果想当年。。。

这都太迟了。。回首往事又何必呢?
只是偶尔想起会后悔当初。。
可能这是天意。。
可能这是缘分。。
可能这是。。惩罚?

算了，现在最重要的是抓紧机会，努力补救，不要重蹈覆辙罢了。。
其它的我都无能为力。。
最怕就是"心魔"出现，我就绞架不住了。。。

宅女

"明天要去唱K吗?"
"我不喜欢唱歌啦，不要!"

"明天跟B3那班朋友去XXX聚会，要不要?"
"不要啦~很闷的。。跟他们都没两句。。冷场就不好鸟。。"

"明天我们一起去看戏，很久没进戏院鸟。"
"我没空，不要。。你们去吧!"

认识我的人都知道我是名副其实的宅女。。

我不(敢)否认。。

同学或朋友约我出去， 我都会很直接的拒绝。。

原因很多:不被允许，缺乏金钱，不爱人群。。就是不想。。

大家很好奇在家的我会忙些什么。。

其实也没什么。。就是爱躲在家发呆也好，收拾房间也好，就是喜欢一个人。。

享受单独却害怕孤独。。

怀念单恋

单恋时总期望可以跟对方谈恋爱。。
原来恋爱了也不过如此。。

内心的失落、无助，现在还是存在着。
自己的心事，至今还是个谜。
本来的压力，现在更繁重了。
习惯了孤独，现在变得陌生。

原来单恋也是种幸福。

归属感

假期月期间到处都是人群。。学生美眉，帅哥无处不在。。

看到都觉得开心叻。。有美眉看。。总好过看一些恶心的欧巴桑。。

哎，不得不认老了。。那些美眉位位都打扮得时髦可爱。。连我这位还算正常的小姐都看得入神。。

回来两个星期都很少见到相熟的老朋友们。。一些还未回来；一些则闭关休养。。

今天难得跟妈去很多学生混的广场。。平时妈嫌那里难泊车都不肯带我去。。
。。。

逛了不久就碰见一个又一个的老同学兼朋友。。

首先是跟我同KUSTEM的伟伦和UMS的嘉敏。。谈话期间突然杀出两位"程咬金"(开完笑的啦!):一位是UM的振源和UMS的莹穆。。原来还有很多"警探"躲在卡拉室里，有KUSTEM的佩珊啦，UNIMAS的嘉欣啦，USM的伟杰啦，UPM的诗棋啦。。跟他们在一起的应该还有UNIMAS的慧敏，UPM的懿颦。。

为了不让妈妈等太久，就乘机跟大家道别了。。在购物的当儿又碰见UNIMAS的WEI YEN和UKM的淑华。。

离别后的重逢真的很开心。即使只是几句问候，那种"家"的感觉特别浓郁。。

大家曾经为了延续追求知识而努力的奋斗读书，曾经在同一间学府求学。。知道自己可以踏上大学生涯当然值得高兴。。现在大家已经各奔东西追求自己的未来。。感叹光阴似箭啊!

我看见大家跟我一样。。那种见到老朋友的心情。。就是眼睛都在发亮，心里总是莫名的兴奋。。

这就叫做归属感吧?

Quarrel

阴天

很想哭~没有原因的哭~
很想喊~无缘无故的喊~
很想放纵自己~喜欢做什么就做什么~
很想失常一次~像个疯人般~
就是办不到
很累~
努力的在掩饰。。。
没有人发现。。。
静悄悄的自己承受~自己压抑着。。。
没什么大不了~习惯就好~
没什么大不了~就是改不了~

爱你

爱要说出来 是对的
我好爱好爱你。。。

妈妈，
您周全的照顾
我被宠得很爽

哥哥，
你严厉的教诲
我会牢牢记住

爸爸，
你严肃的表情
一点都不可怕

培南，
我感受到
一种莫名的熟悉感

科大，
你的新你的美你的好
会逐渐被发掘的

软件，
我会试着爱你
转系是口是心非

软件学长们，
你们是我最好、
最亲切的学长

室友们，
跟你们住在一起
真的很开心

系友们，
我们就快一家亲了！

幸福

只想说 我很幸福！
很多爱我的人
很多我爱的人
被爱是幸福
爱人更幸福
心暖暖 洄心一笑
有着被保护的感觉
有着被宠的感觉
唠叨 紧张 挨骂 体贴
都是爱的表现
我好幸福！

我要快乐

我要快乐
我要简单
为什么 总爱相比
为什么 总爱竞争

我要快乐
我要简单
为什么 总爱让我流泪
为什么 总爱让我难过

我要快乐
我要简单
为什么 总爱戴假面具
为什么 总爱自导自演自己爽

莫名的兴奋

先有最坏的打算
深信 期望越高失望越大
一个小小惊喜 就会莫名的开心
这叫容易满足？
对我而言 这是快乐的来源

假期

人群逐渐减少
宿舍冷清清
店打佯了 热闹不在
寂寞的心情 不断涌现
放假的心情 没了
假日只是驱壳
剩下的却是 寂静
静得嘘寒 很冷很冷

twenty no change....

I'm older and older already !!! Don't Want, I don't want !!! Feel sad when im growing older... Haiz~~ What's to do? Unless i had an memorable birthday...

Since I saw with my real eyes, Im scare to celebrate birthday and try not to mention my birthday..However, IT"S TOO LATE!!! My course mates will spread from miles to miles... Hui?! I not yet explain why am I so scare to celebrate my birthday woh.. U noe y? It's because..... During my course mates' birthday celebration, they have been thrown with birthday cake by other course mate.. Scared leh!!! I will surely SCREAMMMM AS LOUD AS POSSIBLE...

Luckily, this year got a person "protect" me.. BUT, i don't noe what will happen the next birthday...

Quite surprise, but not because of his intelligence. What he has done really made me dunno should i cry or laugh..

Very happy and touching when i got so much greeting from my family and friends...

Busy + Stressful Uni Lifestyle

I wanna go back to my hometown !! Serious Homesick...

The study week on this mid October, i have to stay back in hostel and "celebrate" Hari raya at there... sob sob.. The reasons are a little bit complicated.. What I feel lucky and relieve is 2 of my roommates also stay back here..and my secondary schoolmates also stay back here for revision..Izzit we are so hardworking?? haha.. Have to use this week to study well or that week will be a waste..

Who tell me that the first semester of the uni life is very free and enjoyable?!!! I totally, completely didn't feel that!!!! What i get is assignment, assignment, assignment, test, test, test, busy, busy and busy..........!!! Stress, Pressure~~~~A person lazy and prefer enjoy the life like me really will faint and frustrated...FRUSTRATED~~~~

Mid sem~~

It's been a long time i didnt update my blog. The reasons are many. Lazy, busy, blank...

After the first sem break, personally has changed a lot.. Try to eat less to save money, try to wash my clothes without washing machine to save money, try to not buy any unuseful materials to save money again, try to change the socks everyday to avoid my sensitive leg from falling ill..

Besides, my pressure is rising since i got my test result.. My feeling just like the time in form six.. tension~ i really dont want to repeat the same failure in this new starting uni life as in last two years.. i really hurt when i knew i have to attend the tutorial class.. i really dont know how come i would write this kind of answer.. maybe im not familiar with the question and unable to communicate with the question.. everytime i din have the luck when sitting for exam..really got exam phobia.. haiz~~ stupid gal~~stupid gal~~

i try hard to change myself.. not to sleep in the afternoon but just a nap if really cant concentrate.. i force myself to drink coffee everyday during the exam season although i really not like it.. force to increase the study time as late as possible.. force myself to keep my mind fresh..

i dont want my family worry me and im the only child who undergrade and the only hope for my family.. the only way to make my family proud with me is to graduate with distinction or at least get a second upper class.. or i really dont want to live on this earth..

feel shamed when face with my lecturer and the feeling of sadness and disappointment flow out automatically from my heart..

Work hard, Hazel!!!

A Trip to Pulau Bidong

Well, the time was passing very fast.. the trip was over and i think i should write something bout it..

the first day (2/8/06) morning, we departed from 9.00am and arrived at the Pulau Bidong at 11 sth.. after that trip i found myself got an illness - that is - mabuk laut...

just arrived at there, we had to build up our camp ourselves.. many sand and not comfortable.. hate sleeping in the camp indeed...

later, our first activity has begun... SCARED~~~ had to swim for about 500m to the middle of the sea.. and the fact is I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SWIM !!! then the facilitators taught us how to float and how to stand on the sea. I wonder why am i so scare until screamed and laughed abnormally along the sea...and held my friends' hand very tightly...thanks Mei Ling and Siew Mun... from the sore to the middle of the sea... after reaching the boat.. have to jump from the boat and swim back to the beach again!! surely, I screamed again.. the faci laughed at me and teach me swim like doggy...hehe..
honestly, i had drank lot of water in the sea.. REALLY masin.

huh~~ quite siok actually.. the water is so clear until can see through the bottom of the sea..

snorkeling was our second activity for out pari group ... we had to wear the fins and SWIM AGAIN.. im too scared and just swim to 100m and snorkel at there... siok... can see the fish swimming here and there and the coral was beautiful... those who swim to the middle said many species of fishes and colourful coral.. got nimo oso..

after that, we had to prepare for our cheer song..and prepare for the presentation for the next night.

really hard to sleep at night the sand was so and the camp was so small... the camp have to fill in 5 person.. u noe??? turn my body oso cannot.. my ass so painful becoz of the sand..

fishing was the first activity for the next day.. the wave at the middle of the sea really large... mabuk laut again... the first 20min still able to endour.. the first fish and the last fish i got was a fish used to fry the keropok.. after this fish, i mabuk laut and cannot wake up oreadi.

well, i wont miss up any chance to try the activities even i was still mabuk.. playing canoe woh! how can i miss ler? siok again.. i juz tried the kayak only 2 years ago.. canoe was the first time..first first i really scare to the canoe bcoz it is so light.. during canoeing, i totally changed my prejudis to the canoe... it is faster than the kayak... canoeing along the sea... hehe.. can see throuh the bottom of the sea and saw the coral...

the most tired activities was the last one, i.e jungle tracking.. have to climb and slide down the jungle.. tired~~~

after the night, my whole body oso pain.. from my shoulder to my toes.. that night was quite seksa because of the rain and the camp... our camp almost flied away.. we all dun wan to sleep and juz stand at the stall...and you know want happen? we all play a game called "asked and answer".. we asked and the person who kena will answer with a torchlight.. heehee... the people beside us busy bbQ and we busy talking and laughing..until 1am..

the last day, still got activity but i din involve...then we back to our hostel at 12pm..and had a nice bath~~

Interesting

My second home - Library

Haiz~ Assignment assignment... Computer computer...
well, i realized computer is VERY essential to me since very long time ago..

but i din realize library is so important to me since i come to a new environment with lack of my own pc..

every assignment has to type and print out..
every assignment has to search the material with Internet...

since the first assignment, we had set the library as our home instead of hostel..
until now, 5th assignment.. we have to stay in the library at least 5 hours EVERY DAY...
at there we have to ignore our lunch and dinner to get a place for using the pc..
u noe, the record we have is from 10.30am (without leaving the library block) to 7pm, eight and a half hours facing the computer !!!.. no wonder my spec increase in degrees la..

yesterday even stayed until 10pm (but from 4.30pm).. we had our dinner (better said supper) at 10.30pm.. so pity..

however, i was quite enjoy it because of the air-con inside the library.. prefer stay in the libary than in the hostel..

hard to study in the room.. the table is small.. no place to place my books.. Haiz~~
have to depend on library looo..

May I ?

May I miss you?
May I thinking of you ?
May I care of you ?
May I see you ?
May I approach to you ?

Whether the answer is yes or no,
Please kindly endure it for a year..
Please don't try to tell me the truth
i know the truth..
it's always cruel..
i know the truth..
it's always oppposed to our wish..

So, just let me deceived myself forever..

A stupid Girl With Silly Acts

i dunno how to explain the situation that day..
erm.. the story went like this..
last two days, we 4 coursemates + roomates were "hardworking".. stayed in the library for a whole day from 11am to 7pm... well, the first thing we had to do before entering the library is to place the bags in the e-locker.. for the e-locker, i had to explain a bit bout how it's function.

the instruction i knew is
first, u have to insert 20 cents ..
then a slip with a password will be printed out...
if over 3 hours, u have to insert another 20 cents to open the locker..
when the locker was opened, it can be closed again with belongings inside..
then use back the first password to re-open the locker..

Actually, what i considered before 25/7/06, 7pm was WRONG!!!
our belongings were stuck in the locker.. the password was not suit and cannot open the locker...
all of us stunned at there.. and then search for help..
luckily there was still a assistant working..
he saved our bags...

actually, after 3 hours when u insert another 20 cents, the e-locker will be opened... after it opened, all the belongings inside have to taken out and close the locker.. if u wanna extend the time.. u have to insert 20 cent again for a new password and new locker..

well, as the title said a stupid girl with silly acts..
Is my fault!!! i din read the instruction properly which juz stick at the e-locker wall..

Nevermind la, the e-locker settled already.. after back to hostel.. got a silly act again..
well, first i wanna take my clothes from my cupboard... the cupboard was locked and have to open it with my key.. my chain of key ...

after i opened it, i juz put it inside the cupboard and SHUT the cupboard.. The key is INSIDE the cupboard!!!

well, im not silly at all geh. got spare key mah... luckily...

Im crying...

After getting this course, i received it with open hearted for these few weeks. I aways tell myself u can do it. Everytime i attend the computing class, i try my best to follow the class although im not so understand what the lecturer thought. Every assignment i give all my effort on it. But i dunno why, im exhauted.. really... but i cant give up.. i have no choice.. not afford to study in the private University..im stupid and torpor..

Until this evening, Im crying in the library.. sambil crying sambil typing.. luckily no one discover it.. hehe.. doing my assignment in the half way also can cry suddenly...using three tissue already..

Relief... after crying out.. can continue my assignment now...

放 弃 了。。

是 时 候 了 吗 ? 为 何 还 要 执 着 ?
辛 苦 还 是 辛 苦 。 。 。
没 有 答 案 。 。 没 有 结 果 。 。
放 弃 ， 最 好 的 方 法 。 。
累 了 ， 真 的 。 。
试 过 就 好 ， 不 需 结 果 ， 不 需 答 复 。 。
只 想 好 好 的 过 日 子 。 。

再 下 去 ， 更 讨 厌 自 己 。 。
失 败 了 为 何 还 要 尝 试 。 。
害 怕 ， 真 的 。 。

I wont try to change the will of God

hehe.. actually i juz "fa lao sao" only.. i noe i wont change course in whatever condition.. the reasons are many.

firstly, if i really not interested in this course, i wont get the cpga more than 3.. then i hav no chance to change...

secondly, if i really get cpga more than 3, that's mean i like this course and able to score..why am i still have to change course?

thirdly, like the others said : this is "ditadirkan"..

forthly, im a positive thinker.. i can use this opportunnity to explore how to program..

fifthly, i wont easily give up.

Don' forget that Im a high curiousity person.. quite curious bout programming indeed.. but im scare when exam (got exam phobia).. haiz~~ how wonderful if i can find a tuition teacher.. now have to find out all myself.. my brother and seniors become my inquiry station..all start from zero.. what i studied in form six became a waste..(wu yong wu zhi di)...

SO, SENIORs, TRY NOT TO HIDE FROM ME WHEN I GOT QUESTION TO ASK ABOUT..
U ALL HAVE TO SUPPORT THE WEAK STUDENT LIKE ME..

for my interest in biology, have to conceal in my heart loo.. now i have to concentrate in IT.. all the books and magazines i read now all r concerning computer. the FIRST computering reference book i bought is "programming with java".

Im staying in KUSTEM for 3 years

Well, I'm here for three weeks already. the first week obviously would be the most exhausted week - orientation. However, i just went through it happily. Many of my friends asked: "why are you so enjoyable?" They thought i would be the most home sick person especially my old friends. it seems it was false. I also wonder why. Maybe because of the experience during the national service. i should thank to our deputy ministre, somehow. if he din introduce this program i wont got chance to be matured.

I really happy with uni life at here although with lots of assignments juz at started tutorial. maybe im the lucky one. All the three roomates are chinese and they are nice nice belaka. Also i got many nice nice seniors. they willing to give their notes and assignments to their juniors. so many...boxes and boxes.Thanks all the seniors very much, especially the first senior i knew before i registered to the kustem. whenever how i "kacau" and always ask him question, he will surely reply me with sincerely. actually i know myself im too nervious in all the things and ask too details.. hehe..sorry. I will try not to "kacau" him oftenly.

Sometimes, i really upset with the subject i got. Why im not taking the biological science?!! I like biology!!!! When the lecturer intruduce the JAVA to us, i totally BLUR wut he was talking about..

ridiculous adventure

well, u may say we are hardworking or doing things in the last minutes. we have our grievances indeed! hehe.. firstly, we dont have computer and have to go to cyber cafe and library.. also, we cant borrow reference books from library yet because of lacking matrik card.. so pity..

okay, this day, we have to attend classes from 10 to 12pm.. later comtech got a meeting again in 2.30pm to 5 sth.. Until 5 sth we still not yet beginning writing our content! wednesday have to hand up already.. then we are very "hardworking" one.. searching information in the library non stop.. dunno why.. when im sitting in front the computer, i able to forget my dinner and others.. hehe..

hours and hours later, my friends asking me to leave because she is hungry already. when i see my watch, "What!! 8 sth already?!" the night is falling and the dark is dangerous.. haha..

we 4 coursemates + roomates fast fast leave the library.. when we 3, bee choo, mei ling and i decided to walked back to hostel, see may suddenly VERY scare (i wondered why).. she almost wanna to walk to the hostel along the street putside the campus..

luckily, still have two male coursemates in the library, one is our "monitor" another is "lion" (i dunno how to write his name). then we 6 IT coursemates walking back to the hostel together.. the situation was funny.. usually bee choo is the slowest, but this day she was the fastest (walking in front).. haha..

Walking , Marching, walking....the road light SUDDENLY turn off ! "AHHHH !!" i screamed continued with mei ling and bee choo.. Frightened us!!

Finally, we reached to the hostel already.. sweating until my jacket also wet wet already...
when i imbas kembali the situation i will oso laugh...hehe

The Offer I Obtained

The previous Sunday midnight, I got two identical short messages from my friends. It’s stated:
“Keputusan UPU akan dikeluarkan pada 19hb Jun 2006. Taip UPU No.k/p & hantarkan ke 32300. hantarkan kpd yg lain yg berkenaan.”

I have no sensation and reaction with it even if I knew that possibly true. Maybe I had enough mentally preparation for the consequences?! Of course no la! In fact, the NTV news had announced the result of graduate lists will be released on the third week of June earlier.

I was going very nervous in the morning and sent a short message to 32300. I wondered why as well. The speed of responses is rather high. Within seconds the reply was coming. “Beep…beeps…”
“permohonan anda telah diterima dan sedang diproses. Sila semak keputusan pada minggu keempat bulan jun.”

Disappointed. I somewhat hoped the results could be released as early as possible. “Let me take pleasure in today first,” I thought. Well, I’m not prepared to veil that the pleasure I mentioned is surfing. Ha-ha. The higher education ministry website was running as usual and got zilch new announcement posted at the afternoon.

When I’m already be seated in the car, yet again two short messages came to my phone.
“What course and university you got?”
“Do you still keep in mind the exam code?”

“S-H-I-T ! The result was released already?! Why the reply I obtained that morning mentioned another way? Do I fall short of having a seat in any of the local campus? A short message was once more sent to the UPU. This time, the response of UPU and I are VERY different.

My response started from Happy, Perplexed, Excited, Disappointed and Panic again.
The short message went like this:
“TAHNIAH Anda berjaya ke KUSTEM. Kursus GC10 Teknologi Maklumat (Kejuruteraan Perisian)”

Let me make clear the expression I brought up above.
H-A-P-P-Y = Finally I got the good news (able to get in local university)
P-E-R-P-L-E-X-E-D = what is KUSTEM?
E-X-C-I-T-E-D = I got the information technology (software engineering) course! One major part of computer science which is my forth choice.
D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-E-D = my dream to wear the white robe (the doctor or biologist wear) was broken. What I studied the last two years has zero links to this course. Almost zero except math.
P-A-N-I-C = Where is KUSTEM located? What does K-U-S-T-E-M stand for? Why I didn’t be concerned with this place before?

With my friend and brother’ conformation through its official website, the conclusion I could make is Terengganu. Why I have strong affinity with Terenggunu ?! I just came back from there last two years ago for national service and now have to go there again!!!!
Fainted.

Evolutionary Music Aficionado

There are lots of abiding fads accompanying me this few months. Music is undoubtedly being one of them. Well, the phrase “music aficionado” is too professional for me as I’m not adept in any of the musical instrument. “Mixed listener” is apter for this article but I feel the headline above is more chic. hehe.

During these half year long vacation, a big evolution of my music flavor has gone on me.
Chinese music was cup of my tea in the starting leave month. When the intriguing Korean dramas such as “The 19 Years Old Aunt”, “Beautiful Life”, “Save the Last Dance”, “Green Rose” and “My Lovely Sam Soon” were running on the TV screen, I was getting into their original sound-tracks. They are appealing to the ear indeed! The OST are hardly found in the web. Maybe they are not as familiar as those pop songs. I have used up my precious times and patience to search all of them.

The Korean fever has been over when the “My Lovely Sam Soon” came to a flawless denouement as the dramas coming up are not intriguing and couldn’t pull towards my attention. They are very tedious!

In the morning, I am fond of listening to the Hitz radio station, especially the Morning Crew program. JJ and Rudy are humorous and mischievous indeed. Both of them always play a trick on the callers. The Yes / No game and Gotcha Call make me laughing for all the games period. My mum curious why am I laughing once the Hitz FM switch on during in the morning. Hehe. Now she knew already and switch to higher volume when the two deejays are on air.

Surely, most the songs the radio station broadcast are very pleasant to listen to. I prefer listening to English songs for this time, particularly those songs which swing me most and make my heart pounding. The rhythm they composed is great, fantastic and really swings. With the skilled tune, I’m enjoying the songs! Even a young singer has a powerful tune, who I meant is Rihanna. Their music not bring to a halt at romantic song with plain rhythm but there are also various types of music like pop, rock, hip hop, rhythm and blue. I like alternative rock the most because of the musical instrument the groups play.

Some of the Chinese songs are too dull and plain. No doubt, there are some of the singers are endeavoring to make something new but failed, in my opinion. They like to follow that Japanese Style or Europe style. I’m going to fall asleep when I listen to certain songs and the tune of some artists is making me frustrated. Their voice are not unique and no technique at all. Well, my remark just aims at those are green and those who lean against their beautiful face with no actual potency. I’m disappointed with Chinese music in a definite period.

Until some of the Chinese vocalists with qualification released their latest album, I was come back to Chinese songs with no give up to English songs, of course. Maybe one day I’m getting boring to those English Songs, who knew?

The Da Vinci Code

In fact, I'm not going to write on this title during its hottest period. It will be quite boring when there are too many comments about the book and also the movie. Ermm, since it's going to cool down and as its reader and audience, I should write something about it, something which is different and fresh, I hope.

Well, whether the book or the movie, it has been a fever topic since its release as we all knew. However, the outline that touched on a murder and religious matter had once made me barely got interest in the story. I'm indeed not a good reader all the time. The Harry Potter series which are arranged properly in my bookshelf look upon me with favor always but I never endeavor to finish the books, not even one of them. Ashamed?

Until last month, I determined to read up the Harry Potter and The Order of Phoenix. After some chapters, I was suddenly seized by a whim to read The Da Vinci Code up and left the Harry Potter aside. Hehe. I'm sorry, J.K Rowling. The reasons are hardly explained maybe? I'm going to explain however. (bleh)

Firstly, Dan Brown should thank to the media as it has well promoted the book with detailed report on the background of the La Giaconda's Smile and the legendary and clandestine conspiracy. Secondly, the contribution of Leonardo Da Vinci cannot be obliterated. In fact, his artworks are intriguing until lots of surmises have been brought about, especially The Last Supper. Thirdly, the truth of the Holy Grail is quite interesting to discover but (Here's a but) I am more interested in understanding the history of Christianity rather than excavate the truth.

The Cross is not my religious symbol and I don't know how it came to be. Ha-ha. I'm curious in everything except those related on history. Nevertheless because of this book, I became curious about its history. Before that, I thought bible is the only book the Christian read. Actually, there are still some versions of it, Old and New Testament and others which I'm not familiar with. Hehe, please forgive my torpor. I imagine this is part of the success of this book.

Before starting its chapters, I have made a promise or a vow to myself, that is this book must be finished reading in two weeks time before its first-run movie. Finally, the show has begun running and I'm still reading. Sob. I finished it a week after the movie began its run.

Actually, I had my grievances, i.e. I was busy accompanying my mum to somewhere and had business to be done. Accordingly, I had delayed my promise.

The next thing I'm ready to put pen to paper for is the praise on The Da Vinci Code. Dan Brown's imagination and the idea really made me admire him. The Fibonacci sequence which is a progression in which each term is equal to the sum of the two preceding terms and Hebrew alphabet with fold- over to break the code (SOFIA) gave me the deepest impression. They are really intriguing. I supposed the author had used lots of time and effort in the researches.

Dan Brown's explanation of the masterpiece - The Last Supper - is also quite logical in some cases, especially on the V shape and the colour of Jesus Christ's clothes and the man beside him who is actually John (Mary Magdalene in the book).

Of course, I stand on neither the book nor the truth side since I'm not a Christian or Catholic. hehe. As Robert Langdon said (forgot the precise text): as long as the one we believe on can give us the right guidance, it doesn't matter which the truth is or whether the Sang real should be revealed. (According to the book).

After commenting the book, I'm trying to talk about the movie. Engaging Tom Hanks as the main actor ? Many criticized the stiff performance of Tom Hanks. Still, I like Tom Hanks to be Robert Langdon and the role of Robert Langdon as Dan Brown described is matching to the performance of Tom Hanks.

I think the criticisms (but with good boxoffice business) was because of the director. Ron Howard couldn't bring out the essence of this book and he just hurriedly shot the film out. With the first Dan Brown book Angels and Demons to be shot soon, I hope Steven Spielberg will not follow the same old disastrous road.


Da Vinci Webquest
Da Vinci Webquest - Answer
Personality of The Issue - Leonardo Da Vinci

An ill-timed Execution

From the Tsunami happened the last two years, Rita and Katrina the previous year until the earthquake occurred just past a week, there have been uncountable folks met their deaths. The abrupt catastrophes happen unceasingly in all parts of the globe following with all sort of pestilences burst out, JE, insane cow disease, SARS, dengue fever, flu and mouth disease, bird flu. We are all living in a menacing globe, aren't we?

Obviously, the anxiety we faced is far more than that. The inflation rate had risen as a result of the increase in the prices of goods following the sharp fuel increase. I'm not blame on the rising oil prices of course. The RM1.92 per liter oil price will surely be boosted to the highest value because of scanty petroleum sources.

What made me aggravated is the escalation of power bill implemented by this month. Increasing 12% is a large amount for those factories. For those the bill are constant at between RM44-70, the rise is between RM0.03-3.30 .The reason of this implementation which was given by the minister is to nurture the frugal habit of using electricity to citizens made me don't know whether should laugh or cry.

Did they ever think over the consequences and the welfare of the public? With the rising of power bill, the prime cost of goods will also be added. The mounted prime cost will cause the selling price growing. The selling price of goods has increased once in the wake of rising fuel prices. Currently, the good prices have to boost again to avoid losing proposition.

I'm not against the raise of electricity bill. My feeling is this is not the suitable moment to burden the people again. The bill can be risen as much as they need but now is ill-timed. Maybe it can be promoted later when the people are getting used to current inflation rate? Don't you think this entire oil, pork, bill, goods, and food rise is burst out with a sudden like disaster and disease? How does our economic situation be raised? With the help of tourism? The Disneyland Company even doesn't have the consideration to build an amusement park in our country.

The residents in this country are fraught with challenges while TN faces this rising inflation rate without difficulty. This action is actually to hit us when we are suffering with tribulation. Why not the government implements an action to boost the salary of the employees? Ha-ha... I think this country can hardly improve with poor human capital and government. Sob.

Mandarin demand is discriminatory

"Wednesday May 31, 2006

KUALA LUMPUR: The private sector should stop the practice of making it compulsory for local graduates to be proficient in Mandarin, Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak said.

The Deputy Prime Minister urged the private sector to be open in accepting and training local graduates without including certain requirements and looking at their background.

"I have checked some advertisements, where the criteria for potential employees includes being proficient in Mandarin," he said when winding up the debate on the Ninth Malaysia Plan at Dewan Negara yesterday.
"It is discriminatory. Such a practice should stop. "

Najib, who was replying to questions concerning unemployed graduates, said the number of graduates had almost doubled from 45,000 in 2000 to 85,000 last year. He said that according to a survey 32% of the graduates had yet to secure jobs after completing their studies last year.

He said the Government would intensify efforts instilltil the entrepreneurship culture in universities.
"We believe that with exposure to the business world, graduates will be more interested in becoming entrepreneurs upon completing their studies," he said.

This news has probably aroused my fury. I don't think mandarin demand is biased. Mandarin is so important nowadays. Yet, Singaporeans who has once neglected Mandarin sensed its importance and endeavor to accentuate Chinese in their education. They could feel a sense of foreboding since China implement the open-door policy and initiate developing few years ago. What's wrong with those privacy companies to create such a demand?

I believe the main purpose of this discourse is to shield those aborigines in this country. Moreover, the idleness of most graduates is not because of mandarin demand. May I ask which race is the highest unemployed graduates? I should answer: those aborigines.

Let us take this in the other way. That's good to learn more languages other than only our mother tongue. Actually, Mandarin demand is just an additional requirement. To increase the opportunities of getting a job, it's good to learn Mandarin. Honestly, I'm quite frustrated with those Chinese who do not master their first language. some of them even don't know how to write their chinese name. Don't they ashamed?

Also, what was "private sector to be open in accepting and training local graduates without including certain requirements and looking at their background" meant? This is not fair to the private sector to employ a worker without any requirement. They are not creches! The companies need to pay salary to those who are not qualified furthermore?!
I am stuffed with chaos.

The government should not accuse the private sector just because of Mandarin requisite. Of course this is not the issue. If those graduates really have the potency and vigor, I suppose they will not possibly be jobless. Those authorities should act on something that does really make sense rather than made a futile discourse.

七色彩带

上个星期日接近傍晚又下雨了
大概两个小时后
恢复了晴朗的天空
雨水把整个污染的天空
清洗得一甘二净
还为天空带来了七色的彩带
随手拿起手机拍下了这个诱惑我的彩虹

圆了谁的梦

近 年 来，
各 式 各 样 的 传 短 讯 投 票 歌 唱 比 赛 节 目
随 着 “ 发 掘 人 民 歌 唱 才 华” 的 目 的涌 着 而 来。
先 是ASTRO 新 秀 大 赛，
再 来 是 大 马 偶 像，
刚 结 束 一 个 月 的 绝 对SUPERSTAR，
还 有 陆 续 而 来 大 大 小 小 的 歌 唱 比 赛。
这 类 短 讯 投 票 式 的 比 赛
有 人 欢 喜 ， 有 人 愁。
有 人 抗 议 这 样 的 方 法 决 定 胜 负
很 不 公 平；
有 人 却 不 亦 乐 乎 地
猛 传 短 讯
为 自 己 喜 欢 的 参 赛 者 投 票。
以 我 的 立 场
－ 一 个 不 曾 为 任 何 参 赛 者 投 票
应 该 可 以 发 表 一 些 意 见 吧？！
首 先，
我 觉 得 这 样 的 投 选 方 式 没 有 什 么 不 妥。
赞 助 商 和 主 办 单 位 为 的 是 利 润
个 人 认 为 他 们 没 有 酱 伟 大。。。。
其 次，
参 赛 者 参 与 这 些 歌 唱 比 赛
为 的 是 什 么？
还 不 是 有 朝 一 日 可 以 出 唱 片、当 歌 手
难 道 只 是 单 纯 为 了 要 展 现 自 己 的 歌 喉？
既 然 要 出 专 辑
自 己 也 想 专 辑 大 卖
唱 片 公 司 也 要 那 些 有 销 售 保 证 的 歌 手 啦
（ 胜 力 者 得 签 约 出 唱 片〕
说 的 是 正 版 叻
那 些 舍 得 出 钱 消 费 的 才 是 公 司 的 财 神 爷
自 然 的
舍 得 花 钱 投 票 的 疯 狂 歌 迷
对 参 赛 者、 唱 片 公 司 多 多 少 少 都 有 销 售 保 证
就 连 短 讯 都 不 舍 得 发
怎 么 会 买 一 张 价 值 四 十 多 块 的 专 辑？
有 的～ 可 是 少 数 人
唱 片 没 人 买
歌 手 会 被 雪 藏 的
你 又 欲 心 可 忍 呢？
即 使 是 以 评 审 团 决 定 胜 负

也 会 出 现 个 人 主 见 的 困 扰
其 实
这 样 的 投 票 方 式 圆 了 明 星 梦 之 于

也 圆 了 主 办 单 位 的 发 财 梦
可 乐 而 不 为 呢？

无聊。。。

我 不 是 作 家
我 没 有 Dan Brown 的 神 奇 想 象 力＋ 手 笔
简 单 的 部 落 格
没 有 华 丽 的 外 表
没 有 精 巧 的 文 字
里 头 是 我
经 历 的 琐 碎 事 情
文 章 搞 笑 的 词 语
是 黑 思 迩 地 带 的 目 的
带 给 大 家 欢 笑
让 我 开 心 的 一 面 能 够 渲 染 大 众
就 酱 简 单
开 心 就 好 嘛
对 不 对？
笑 一 笑

“母 啊S。。。”

洗牙一点都不好玩！

自换了成人牙齿之后，一直都没有“拜访”牙科诊疗所，除了检查牙齿。
其实是有一颗烂牙，不过没办法补。牙医叔叔只是叫我常常刷那颗牙齿。一刷就刷了5年。烂的范围是有扩大的迹象。

五年后的去年，碰巧妈妈要去弄牙套，我又顺便跟着去补那颗烂烂地的牙。
怎知牙医叔叔竟然只帮我刮掉那颗烂牙的污垢，然后告诉我说另外牙缝里有一个洞。问我吃东西是不是会塞住食物。呓，他不问我也不发觉，一问又觉得好像是喔！他就只是帮我补了那个洞。

当时的情况还挺恐怖的。看不到牙医叔叔在做什么，只是凭我的触觉去感觉。
最令我影像深刻的就是他帮我把两颗牙齿撑开的那一刻。
只感觉到他用某块蛮大块的东西塞在我的两颗牙齿之间，然后他用力的把那些石膏死命地、用尽力地塞啊塞进我的牙缝里。

哎哟，我那时拼命的在心里喊：我的牙齿不是很elastic的罢了，你不要那么大力，好不好？他一直塞，我就一直萎缩。当他停止了塞的动作，我心里就松了一口气。呼～～最后，牙医叔叔就把那块撑开两颗牙齿的东西拿掉。呓，两颗牙齿真的又合起来了！哇，原来还蛮elastic的说。

其实这个过程是梃快的。（比起之后的洗牙〕然而怎么可能酱快搞定？！当然不放过任何机会。。。问他我的牙齿值多少钱。。哈哈。。我是指牙齿矫正啦！问了价钱就是忘记问他做这个过程痛不痛。。
当然我持重没有那个勇气去矫正我的牙齿。那个两年半的过程我怕我承受不了。听说很痛，吃东西也只能吃软软的粥，不舒服，要保持牙套的清洁也很麻烦，出街要带牙刷，要用牙线。。。。“哎呀哎呀。。乌哇哇～～”－可能会酱。原来牙齿矫正是没有年龄限制的。呃，也说不定有一天我会去套牙套。这一天应该是我受了什么打击还是没有了怕痛的感觉吧！

至于那颗烂牙，他说了一些我听不懂的话，最后还是没有补。我还是继续的、努力的刷牙。

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半年后，妈妈的牙齿又需要去补。
没事做的我当然也跟着去，反正都要等就顺便去洗牙了。
之前医生说过，洗牙的价钱是以肮脏的程度而定的，所以我也不太担心价钱（不算很脏，只是蛮黄的。。呵呵〕。

由于一大早医生还没来就去“排队”料，“很快”就轮到我们。（等了大概1个半钟〕
妈妈在前我在后。轮到我妈时，我也跟着进去。理由是在外面等我会很紧张。我一直站在医生后面看着他怎样补牙。跟我之前描述的一样。他一直塞我又一直萎缩，虽然不是我在补牙。呵呵。。

终于轮到我料。刚开持时是没什么感觉的。后来怎知那个印度护士站在我的左边拿着一支“水喉”向着我喉咙“灌水”。医生则坐在我的右边左手拿着一支小“水喉”，右手拿着一支尖尖的东西死命刮啊刮我牙齿。他好像刮得很兴奋忘记我就快“溺”死了。我实在忍不住料！吞了一口水。他才发现还没叫我漱口。哎哟，我恨不得他快快搞定。我已经吞了两次水料（还是我口里的肮脏水〕，实在恐怖。

当时的画面


换了仪器后，他还在刮；那位护士还在灌水。心里又在喊：救命啊！！放了我！我要走了！！啊！我不要洗了！终于他没有再刮料，只是喷消毒水。呼～～怎知他又用那个小刷刷我牙缝。他到底要对我的牙齿怎样？！！

“漱一漱口”他说。

漱完后，本来打算要躺下的。

“哦可，得了。”他开口说。

这时，我又觉得酱快的？呵呵。。是不是犯贱？

洗了牙齿明显的感觉到干净了很多，也白了一点。不过过程有点难熬。人家说洗牙是个很慢的过程，不过还好这次我还蛮快。可能医生感觉到我不舒服，也可能我的牙齿不太肮脏吧。原来洗牙比补牙还贵。上次补牙才18块，洗牙却要25块＋“喝”了两次“那些”水。

希望下次洗牙可以相隔久一点，至少先等我忘记这次的溺水记。。所以现在很注意牙齿的清洁，虽然牙齿还是很黄。唉～还是没找到变白的方法。

14－4－2006 （星期五〕

纯碎巧合？！§ 破财挡灾？§ 财散人安乐？

本来还多么期待回培南吃早餐，怎知一常欢喜一场空。那位很无礼的女看管尽然告诉我说今天是运动会。真是气死人！
气的原因除了没得吃培南的食物，其次就是注定要我去三德。哎哟～～真是的！

值得佩服的就是我跟我妈是走路去的。厉害叻？！还好太阳还没起身，要不然我才不会那么无聊叻！脾气不好的我一边走就一边骂：“衰培南，枉我对你念念不忘，你竟然不报梦跟我说你今天运动会？！” 妈妈都顶我不顺了。。

风和日丽的早上，哇，是多么美好！哎哟，之后的一个钟全都是狗屁！

在这一个钟头内还算“风和日丽”。

发生的事如下：

首先， 我们的早餐还算在一个不错的情行下完成。

过后，还在某家商店买到一些战胜品。

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最后在三德也能“顺利”完成我的任务。
所谓的“顺利”就是帮我完成任务的人竟然是我最敬爱和尊敬却对他觉得很惭愧的副校长。
刚好他跟另一位老师讨论完毕，又刚好我经过那里。

“坐啦。”他说。“你是什么班的？”他问。

“B3。”

“考得怎样？”

“很差。”有点不好意思。

对话在此停了10秒。

“之前你不是带这个眼镜的，是不是？”

“之前我没有带眼镜。”

“带Contact lens，是吗？”

“哦。”

“差点不忍得你料。还以为是她的妹妹还是姐姐。”

“呵呵。。”

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“风和日丽"的早晨就酱过了。

一蹋出校门，暴风雨就来了。

当我要过马路去对面的IP是，突然感觉到鞋子好像有点不妥。以为鞋带脱了，怎知竟然是包鞋脱皮了。虽说是时候了，也不能在大庭广众啊！哎哟，实在不能走下去。还好对面的IP开了门。

虽然门开了，鞋店却还没开啊！真是很丢脸也！还好早上刚开门没什么人。等某两间鞋店开了门，我跟老妈就匆去当第一位客人。可是那里的鞋子不堪入目啊！怎么买的下手叻？！

终于，真的是“终于”唯一能看得上眼的鞋店开门了！！相信销售员看到我的鞋子就知道他有生意做了。。进到去就看中了一双包鞋。怎知突然来得意外害我没有准备到钱，身上50令吉都没有的我也害我不能得到那双球鞋。

还好还有妈妈在。呵呵。。也还好那位销售员介绍一双较便宜也是新鲜到场的球鞋。呃，还不错啦!虽然跟我的前一双有点相识，看在是新货就试那双吧！试下试下连我心仪的那双也试了。。还好没有我的5号鞋。不然我会很不甘愿。

第一次就地换鞋子。还要那位销售员帮我把久的球鞋塞进新的鞋盒里，真的丢脸死了！！！！！他身为那品牌的销售员应该不会以为那是翻版货吧？？

就酱浪费料我两百多元。。还打算用在其他地方的说。。现在一下就完蛋料。看来我这两个月得很节省开销了。。

其实我还是很喜欢那双没有我“噻屎”的球鞋，我会想念你的。。

还有我的PRESTO，我会记得你原装的模样的。（因为我已帮它“改装”料〕





Nike Air Presto

摸屁股大战

不知何年何月开持，那个哥哥无聊就会摸我和妈妈的屁股。。。可能是我们的八月十五又圆又大吧？！

都是老哥的错，害我会很顺手的摸妈妈的屁股。。哇，原来妈妈的屁股真的很圆！哈哈哈！

主谋怎么可能会这么逍遥自在呢？！他的屁股当然逃不过我的五指掌啦！！不过他的屁股不好摸的。。扁扁没有肉的。。。一点都不像八月十五。。。

现在就连妈妈也学到我们两个孩子的绝招。。经过我旁边时会咋嘎夷咋嘎夷顺手摸我屁股。。。中招了。。哈哈哈！

觉得我们很变态吗？只是玩玩而已嘛！没什么关系啦！

《我叫金三顺》

呼～终于“追” 完了这部还蛮短的韩国剧集。。只有区区16集。。 不过，还是会在8TV看多一次啦。。因为太好笑了。。

其实还未播出之前早已闻名四处了。。只是当时一看到“金三顺”这个名字就会联想到古代人的名字，而且是男性名。。心想：应该是古装韩剧吧？！所以就对它没什么兴趣。。

怎知8TV竟然要播出街，我当然很好奇啦！一个家喻户晓的电视剧我怎能错过呢？

第一集播出时很期待到底它有什么看头。。还令我蛮失望的。。很很闷。。加上没看过男女主角。。。更好笑的是三顺的前男友和玄彬我竟然分不出。。呵呵。。只在第一集啦。。

但我却没有放弃追守它。。而且越看越好看。。不论是剧集还是男女主角。。呵呵。。原来金宣儿/金善雅为了这部剧竟然增肥9公斤，是"公斤”叻。。。哎哟！真的是很大牺牲。。相信没多少位女主角愿意这样做。。玄彬也只有24岁却要扮成27岁的样子。。其实每个人都看得出他还是很年轻，根本不会是超过25岁的男生。。他还要任劳任怨的让金三顺殴打，虽然是导演的指使。。哈哈哈。。。金三顺真的出尽力打的哦！

这部是一部很现实/实在的爱情小品，我认为。呃，女主角长的不漂亮，胖胖的，也不是有钱人的女孩。。。这个算是其中一点很现实的地方。。没有以往美丽＋魅力＋金钱＋温柔的完美女主角。。这只是其中一点。。

它还包含了爱情里的自私和小气。。当真贤告诉三顺熙真要求他送她回美国时，三顺没有让他去，还跟他大吵了一番。。这是个很真实的例子。。相信没有女生“马上”会让她的男友跟前女友去美国。。

第二就是当真贤带熙真回他家时给三顺撞个正。。三顺知道熙真将在他男友家过夜时，她的不安和妒嫉心态全都表漏出来。。她的举动真的让人喷饭叻。。

这些都是以往韩国连续剧所没有的。。

当然，

剧里的对白很多都会令人深思。。
Thoughts to Ponder:

Let's love like we've never been hurt before.
去爱吧，就像不曾受过伤一样.　　
　　
Let's dance like no one is praising us.
跳舞吧，像没有人会欣赏一样.

Let's sing like no one is listening to us.
唱歌吧，像没有人会聆听一样.

Let's work like we don't need money for it.
干活吧，像是不需要金钱一样.

Let's live like today is the doomsday.
生活吧，就像今天是末日一样.

精神错乱症＋严重犹豫症

恐怖！超恐怖！回想起那天的情况真的很恐怖！其实也没什么啦！
呃。。
这件事其实是这样的。。。
31日是申请大学的最后一天。。本来也没什么要改，科系早已选好（虽然改了两次 ：p)。。
刚好上网想看看有什么关于申请政大的新消息，再顺便检查一下我的申请表格。。
看下看下，原来我的课外活动还可填更好的资料，拿好一点的分数。。
就是为了那10％里的1％，害得我脑袋团团转。。

那个申请表我已改了5次。。难以置信吧？说明只可改3次，我却很幸运的kemaskini了5次。。其实我也不知他们怎么搞的。。按了"sah dan hantar"过后，他说：“anda masih ada 1 peluang untuk kemaskini."

过后，又好像要改一些东西，又按"sah dan hantar"。。这次他竟然说"anda masih ada 2 peluang untuk kemaskini."

就这样不知不觉更改了5次。。。呵呵。。

旧病复发

4个月里没有生病，真的觉得很庆幸。。历年来差不多没两的月就感冒一次。。。

怎么想也没想到星期三晚上吃了蛮多小吃后的一天就遭殃了。。拉了整整10次，吃了3支风沙丸，还发烧。。晚上体内热到不行，体外就冷到睡不着。。

第二天没拉了，也没发烧。。只是胃肿了还很痛，痛到飚冷汗，站坐都很不行。。妈妈竟然强行拉我去看医生。。其实我不是不愿意只是很怕医生按我的肚子，他按的力度会让你忍不住想喊。本来没那么痛，给他按了几按就更痛了。。哎哟～～而且啊，每次医生问我你泻了几次，我都很不好意思的回答他只因不想吓倒医生。。之前几个医生都被我吓倒了。。
我说：“我泻了几天 ，每天4，5次”
他说“HA？！酱久才看医生！”

这次更够力，医生是“阿呐呐”。。
我说：“yesterday I cirit-birit the whole day"
他问：“how many times?"
我答：“erm..almost ten times.."
他说：“10 times?!"
哈哈，不是我想的。。泻到我的肛门都损了。。呵呵。。医生马上在我的病历上写一个“10”。。

每一次医生都会问我有没有呕，每一次我都回答“没有”。。我呕的次数很少。。在这20年里，呕的次数少过5次吧。。
跟我想象中的一样，医生给的药大同小可，又是盐水，抗生素，肚痛药。。肚痛从不会给发烧药。。知道为什么吗？如果真的是盲肠炎，吃了发烧丸盲肠就会“爆炸”。。呵呵，我可是病人专家。。

由于两天一直没睡好，头一直像要裂开一样痛。。风油都给我用了大半支。。
我这个人有三大常出现的毛病：
1。感冒－一吃发烧药就眼肿
2。泻肚－一定会胃痛
3。头痛－通常是偏头痛

Happy Chinese New Year !

Wow ! Wow ! Wow !

Dog year arrived !

Happy New Year to all those Chinese..

come and "fetch" Snoopy "cai shen ye" (jie cai shen)

Decoration

wahaha~~Chinese new year is coming!!! However, I can't have a visit at grandmother's house and lost lots of ang pao...55555~~~

erm.. nevermind..We can't go but they can come..hehe..Invite them to come my house and take their ang pao .. kekeke.. Cunning?

anyway, our house still can have some decoration although my grandpa passed away not long ago..

haha.. My friends, remember this "vase" ?

the joke in Sunway Lagoon.. I still keep it nicely after four years..

quite useful, right?

bought it from somewhere? No no No, it's handmade..

my brother's girlfriend made it for us.. Nice?

Goodbye to my old belongings

Chinese New Year is just around the corner, cleaning up the house is unavoidable.. For me, I used about 2 weeks time to clean up my room, just my room.. haha.. Now my room is out of dust... Yeah...

To have a clean and tidy room, I have to "sacrifice" my old belongings, not to say waste just unused things. As I opened up all those boxes, my toys, pencil cases during childhood, bags, secondary and even primary books still kept in them.. Although they gave me lots of memories, i chose to "abandon" most of them..really unwilling...

EASY vs DIFFICULT

Easy is to judge the mistakes of others
Difficult is to recognize our own mistakes

Easy is to talk without thinking
Difficult is to refrain the tongue

Easy is to hurt someone who loves us.
Difficult is to heal the wound...

Easy is to forgive others
Difficult is to ask for forgiveness

Easy is to set rules.
Difficult is to follow them...

Easy is to dream every night.
Difficult is to fight for a dream...

Easy is to show victory.
Difficult is to assume defeat with dignity...

Easy is to admire a full moon.
Difficult to see the other side...

Easy is to stumble with a stone.
Difficult is to get up...

Easy is to enjoy life every day.
Difficult to give its real value...

Easy is to promise something to someone.
Difficult is to fulfill that promise...

Easy is to say we love.
Difficult is to show it every day...

Easy is to criticize others.
Difficult is to improve oneself...

Easy is to make mistakes.
Difficult is to learn from them...

Easy is to weep for a lost love.
Difficult is to take care of it so not to lose it.

Easy is to think about improving.
Difficult is to stop thinking it and put it into action...

Easy is to think bad of others
Difficult is to give them the benefit of the doubt...

Easy is to receive
Difficult is to give

Easy to read this
Difficult to follow

Easy is keep the friendship with words
Difficult is to keep it with meanings

Mr. Banana

"Mr. Banana, long time no see..."

ai~~ can't say "hi" with him... why? I'm not his friend ..how to say hello to him?.. erm... our relationship only can be described as "prefect-student" relationship.. of course, I was the prefect and he was the student(erm.. senior student..he is older than me) haha..

my friend, kimi, is his admirer.. I'm not as I even don't know his name (better said forgot)..just remember his nickname.. so easy to remember..banana..

erm.. forgot to mention how can I see this "creature"..haha..."fruit" is better i think..

as I shopping at foodstuff section in JJ, I saw a tall, smart( handsome is more appropriate) with upright nose guy making sushi at the sushi corner.. Obviously, I would gazzzze at him for few minutes to conform that he is mr. banana..

Just as expected, he is reeeeally MR.BANANA !!! so excited!!

He's slimmer and smarter with his uniform (sushi uniform)...ermm...he looks taller when standing beside his colleagues.. not as plump as last time I saw him.. maybe that time he was enjoying his honey moon (not search for job yet)...

coincidence

I should post this on last Friday, but erm... tooo busy these few days.. busy cleaning my room, busy with shopping...

It's sooo coincident! From early morning, i noticed a lecturer met his students (if not mistaken) while i was having my "dim sum" at restaurant with my mum.After my breakfast, we walked to the Public Bank nearby to settle something.. Jussssst as I wanted to have a seat waiting for my turn, my chemistry teacher, Mr. Liew stood at one of the counters (just in front of me), but he didn't see me.. A Poi Lam retired teacher, a he, stood beside Mr.Liew (his turn that moment).. Okay..It's okay..

We two mother-daughter shopped at the nearest shopping mall (Jaya Jusco)..shopped for hours .. haha.. excited.. while half shopping, my ex-teacher in Poi Lam brought along his family had a shopping day at there . He , Mr. Koit was my physics teacher during form 4 and 5. A cute teacher..

When we just leaving the shopping mall, I saw a teacher once again.. but I don't know his name.. He, a Malay teacher, didn't teach me just saw him in the Sam Tet school compound..What a coincidence! One day (not my school day) can see so many teachers.. my first time.. scare.. haha..

Short dedication

To : Oon

She had a surgery on last Sunday and need a second operation on the next two months.. Hope she can be fully recovered as soon as possible.. She is a optimistic girl..Pain also can laugh one..haha..I'm sorry that I can't visit her mainly because she had her surgery in Pinang and I'm staying in Ipoh.. Wish her all the best..

from: her torpid Cheah


to: Mee San

Wish her belated happy birthday.. Although I had send her wishes through short message, I don't think that's enough. Don't worry , her three best friends will celebrate with her when she come back..But I think she had an unforgettable and special birthday at such a cooling place.. Happy birthday, my friend.

from: her lovely Cheah


to : Pek Hern

Our tallest girl who is the healthiest among us sick after few weeks at genting.. Hope she can fight bacteria and virus with her antibody produced within few days.. I'm sure she can cope with that and the cold environment there, don't she?

from: her naughty Cheah

Past few weeks

"What are you doing besides playing Harry potter PC game these few weeks?" my friend asked me. This really tough for me. I almost forgot what I have done these few weeks. Let me recall a bit.

After the exam (21/11/05), my friends and I went for lunch and watched a movie: Harry Potter and the Globlet of Fire. My grandpa had passed away just two days after . Then, my family and I went to his funeral for two days. (decribed it before)

On that Friday morning, my brother took me to pejabat Pendidikan Kinta for application of temporary teacher. Unfortunately, the officer told me in Malay language :"twenty six of December you came back." I'm not sure is November or December. Then I asked him again :"twenty six of November?" He answered me :"em.."

When I came back on 26/11/05(Saturday), a guard said the office do not open on Saturday. He explained that the application only open from 26/12 to mid October every year. "AR~~", snarled in myself.

On Monday, my family and I went to KL to settle something critical. This problem really hard to tackle and torment our life. In two weeks time, we went to KL for twice. Finally, relief....

My friend's birthday on the middle of December. We celebrated at Sushi King, watched "Perhaps Love", had high tea at Scotch and visited our Mr.Gordon coincidently. Although we have not bought a present for her yet, I thought she really had a nice birthday.

Think About It a Second or Two

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

小心讀每一個，再用一兩秒想一想

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰。

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚，值得的那一位，不會要你哭。

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

那人不是你所想般愛你，但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手，觸動你心靈的人。

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

掛念一個人最差的方式，就是你坐在他身旁，而知道你不能擁有他。

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

就算你不快樂也不要皺眉，因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

在世界裡你可能只是某人，但對某人你可能是全世界。

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

不要因為完結而哭，要為曾經發生而微笑。

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人，你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前，先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

不要太努力去找，最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

緊記: 所有事也是因果循環的。

True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends?

真正朋友: 有幾多人有八位真正的朋友?

Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!!

我幾乎不認識這些人! 但在我們當中有些人全有對和好的朋友!!!