Mid sem~~

It's been a long time i didnt update my blog. The reasons are many. Lazy, busy, blank...

After the first sem break, personally has changed a lot.. Try to eat less to save money, try to wash my clothes without washing machine to save money, try to not buy any unuseful materials to save money again, try to change the socks everyday to avoid my sensitive leg from falling ill..

Besides, my pressure is rising since i got my test result.. My feeling just like the time in form six.. tension~ i really dont want to repeat the same failure in this new starting uni life as in last two years.. i really hurt when i knew i have to attend the tutorial class.. i really dont know how come i would write this kind of answer.. maybe im not familiar with the question and unable to communicate with the question.. everytime i din have the luck when sitting for exam..really got exam phobia.. haiz~~ stupid gal~~stupid gal~~

i try hard to change myself.. not to sleep in the afternoon but just a nap if really cant concentrate.. i force myself to drink coffee everyday during the exam season although i really not like it.. force to increase the study time as late as possible.. force myself to keep my mind fresh..

i dont want my family worry me and im the only child who undergrade and the only hope for my family.. the only way to make my family proud with me is to graduate with distinction or at least get a second upper class.. or i really dont want to live on this earth..

feel shamed when face with my lecturer and the feeling of sadness and disappointment flow out automatically from my heart..

Work hard, Hazel!!!