My second home - Library

Haiz~ Assignment assignment... Computer computer...
well, i realized computer is VERY essential to me since very long time ago..

but i din realize library is so important to me since i come to a new environment with lack of my own pc..

every assignment has to type and print out..
every assignment has to search the material with Internet...

since the first assignment, we had set the library as our home instead of hostel..
until now, 5th assignment.. we have to stay in the library at least 5 hours EVERY DAY...
at there we have to ignore our lunch and dinner to get a place for using the pc..
u noe, the record we have is from 10.30am (without leaving the library block) to 7pm, eight and a half hours facing the computer !!!.. no wonder my spec increase in degrees la..

yesterday even stayed until 10pm (but from 4.30pm).. we had our dinner (better said supper) at 10.30pm.. so pity..

however, i was quite enjoy it because of the air-con inside the library.. prefer stay in the libary than in the hostel..

hard to study in the room.. the table is small.. no place to place my books.. Haiz~~
have to depend on library looo..

May I ?

May I miss you?
May I thinking of you ?
May I care of you ?
May I see you ?
May I approach to you ?

Whether the answer is yes or no,
Please kindly endure it for a year..
Please don't try to tell me the truth
i know the truth..
it's always cruel..
i know the truth..
it's always oppposed to our wish..

So, just let me deceived myself forever..

A stupid Girl With Silly Acts

i dunno how to explain the situation that day..
erm.. the story went like this..
last two days, we 4 coursemates + roomates were "hardworking".. stayed in the library for a whole day from 11am to 7pm... well, the first thing we had to do before entering the library is to place the bags in the e-locker.. for the e-locker, i had to explain a bit bout how it's function.

the instruction i knew is
first, u have to insert 20 cents ..
then a slip with a password will be printed out...
if over 3 hours, u have to insert another 20 cents to open the locker..
when the locker was opened, it can be closed again with belongings inside..
then use back the first password to re-open the locker..

Actually, what i considered before 25/7/06, 7pm was WRONG!!!
our belongings were stuck in the locker.. the password was not suit and cannot open the locker...
all of us stunned at there.. and then search for help..
luckily there was still a assistant working..
he saved our bags...

actually, after 3 hours when u insert another 20 cents, the e-locker will be opened... after it opened, all the belongings inside have to taken out and close the locker.. if u wanna extend the time.. u have to insert 20 cent again for a new password and new locker..

well, as the title said a stupid girl with silly acts..
Is my fault!!! i din read the instruction properly which juz stick at the e-locker wall..

Nevermind la, the e-locker settled already.. after back to hostel.. got a silly act again..
well, first i wanna take my clothes from my cupboard... the cupboard was locked and have to open it with my key.. my chain of key ...

after i opened it, i juz put it inside the cupboard and SHUT the cupboard.. The key is INSIDE the cupboard!!!

well, im not silly at all geh. got spare key mah... luckily...

Im crying...

After getting this course, i received it with open hearted for these few weeks. I aways tell myself u can do it. Everytime i attend the computing class, i try my best to follow the class although im not so understand what the lecturer thought. Every assignment i give all my effort on it. But i dunno why, im exhauted.. really... but i cant give up.. i have no choice.. not afford to study in the private University..im stupid and torpor..

Until this evening, Im crying in the library.. sambil crying sambil typing.. luckily no one discover it.. hehe.. doing my assignment in the half way also can cry suddenly...using three tissue already..

Relief... after crying out.. can continue my assignment now...

放 弃 了。。

是 时 候 了 吗 ? 为 何 还 要 执 着 ?
辛 苦 还 是 辛 苦 。 。 。
没 有 答 案 。 。 没 有 结 果 。 。
放 弃 ， 最 好 的 方 法 。 。
累 了 ， 真 的 。 。
试 过 就 好 ， 不 需 结 果 ， 不 需 答 复 。 。
只 想 好 好 的 过 日 子 。 。

再 下 去 ， 更 讨 厌 自 己 。 。
失 败 了 为 何 还 要 尝 试 。 。
害 怕 ， 真 的 。 。

I wont try to change the will of God

hehe.. actually i juz "fa lao sao" only.. i noe i wont change course in whatever condition.. the reasons are many.

firstly, if i really not interested in this course, i wont get the cpga more than 3.. then i hav no chance to change...

secondly, if i really get cpga more than 3, that's mean i like this course and able to score..why am i still have to change course?

thirdly, like the others said : this is "ditadirkan"..

forthly, im a positive thinker.. i can use this opportunnity to explore how to program..

fifthly, i wont easily give up.

Don' forget that Im a high curiousity person.. quite curious bout programming indeed.. but im scare when exam (got exam phobia).. haiz~~ how wonderful if i can find a tuition teacher.. now have to find out all myself.. my brother and seniors become my inquiry station..all start from zero.. what i studied in form six became a waste..(wu yong wu zhi di)...

SO, SENIORs, TRY NOT TO HIDE FROM ME WHEN I GOT QUESTION TO ASK ABOUT..
U ALL HAVE TO SUPPORT THE WEAK STUDENT LIKE ME..

for my interest in biology, have to conceal in my heart loo.. now i have to concentrate in IT.. all the books and magazines i read now all r concerning computer. the FIRST computering reference book i bought is "programming with java".

Im staying in KUSTEM for 3 years

Well, I'm here for three weeks already. the first week obviously would be the most exhausted week - orientation. However, i just went through it happily. Many of my friends asked: "why are you so enjoyable?" They thought i would be the most home sick person especially my old friends. it seems it was false. I also wonder why. Maybe because of the experience during the national service. i should thank to our deputy ministre, somehow. if he din introduce this program i wont got chance to be matured.

I really happy with uni life at here although with lots of assignments juz at started tutorial. maybe im the lucky one. All the three roomates are chinese and they are nice nice belaka. Also i got many nice nice seniors. they willing to give their notes and assignments to their juniors. so many...boxes and boxes.Thanks all the seniors very much, especially the first senior i knew before i registered to the kustem. whenever how i "kacau" and always ask him question, he will surely reply me with sincerely. actually i know myself im too nervious in all the things and ask too details.. hehe..sorry. I will try not to "kacau" him oftenly.

Sometimes, i really upset with the subject i got. Why im not taking the biological science?!! I like biology!!!! When the lecturer intruduce the JAVA to us, i totally BLUR wut he was talking about..

ridiculous adventure

well, u may say we are hardworking or doing things in the last minutes. we have our grievances indeed! hehe.. firstly, we dont have computer and have to go to cyber cafe and library.. also, we cant borrow reference books from library yet because of lacking matrik card.. so pity..

okay, this day, we have to attend classes from 10 to 12pm.. later comtech got a meeting again in 2.30pm to 5 sth.. Until 5 sth we still not yet beginning writing our content! wednesday have to hand up already.. then we are very "hardworking" one.. searching information in the library non stop.. dunno why.. when im sitting in front the computer, i able to forget my dinner and others.. hehe..

hours and hours later, my friends asking me to leave because she is hungry already. when i see my watch, "What!! 8 sth already?!" the night is falling and the dark is dangerous.. haha..

we 4 coursemates + roomates fast fast leave the library.. when we 3, bee choo, mei ling and i decided to walked back to hostel, see may suddenly VERY scare (i wondered why).. she almost wanna to walk to the hostel along the street putside the campus..

luckily, still have two male coursemates in the library, one is our "monitor" another is "lion" (i dunno how to write his name). then we 6 IT coursemates walking back to the hostel together.. the situation was funny.. usually bee choo is the slowest, but this day she was the fastest (walking in front).. haha..

Walking , Marching, walking....the road light SUDDENLY turn off ! "AHHHH !!" i screamed continued with mei ling and bee choo.. Frightened us!!

Finally, we reached to the hostel already.. sweating until my jacket also wet wet already...
when i imbas kembali the situation i will oso laugh...hehe